it's a COLOURFUL life i'm living.

9/30/2009 the kiss

Ok. This is a very long ago post. I was suppose to write it. But totally terlupe. Anyway... as I said I did something totally new to my hair. And well I permed my hair. I was psycho-ed by nisa and shirin. My two lovely girls. I swear they're the funniest and the best. They psycho-ed me to do my hair. and anyway my hair was like a mess and I hated it. The new havent sink in to me yet. cause it's my first time with curly wurly hair. Oh lol.

The End product. It was so curly. I was shocked I swear. I almost wanted to cry. cause it seems so new to me and I wasn't totally confident of curly wurly hair. But well I guess it looks nice now. I think...

Well I enjoyed my day with you girls. More dates to come. and thanks for your 2 hours of company, sitting beside me taking stupid pictures and making noise and playing games to entertain yourselves. I appreciate it a lot. Thank you! :)

9/27/2009 the kiss

Raya Day 1.

That's my mom's family. A small but tied bonded family.

My crazy little cousins. And they're not little anymore.

1st day of raya is always the same. Lontong eating at my granny's place then off to some of my mom's relatives and then to my dad. Its like a routine. And it gets better each year.

Well, I got no raya pictures for day 2 cause we didn't go out. But relatives came over.

And I've yet to get my pictures from my dad's side form my cousin. Now that's like a ton of pictures. I like! Wait and see! :)

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I want a great writer to jump into my body, figure me out, write about who i am, how i feel, and then read it to me.

9/25/2009 the kiss

Damn, I'm inspired now.
Thanks to Bimbo.
But i'll think it's a good step. Woo hoo!

And anyway....
I did something to my hair. well it havent sink in properly to me yet. Cause it's totally a different hairstyle for me. Which I never do before. Something first. and I will only show it when i take a nice proper new hair pic! :)

9/24/2009 the kiss

I’m afraid to say “I love you”, because everytime I say it, there’s less meaning in it then the time before.

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I want Eighteen Red Roses.

Won't it be nice?

9/22/2009 the kiss

I'm so comfortable with you. You have this weird affect on me. But i like it.

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Sometimes it feels like I'm nowhere in anyone's heart.
Maybe it's just me.
Well, in case no one know,
when I have friends, I treasure them hell lots.
I probably don't show them much,
because at times, I don't know how to,
call it egoistic,
but I mean when I said,
I never want any of you to walk out of my life.
And likewise, I'll always be there, for all.

Thank God there's my family and cousins and friends whom I could count on this Raya,
it wouldn't feel so lonely then. :)

I miss you best friends.

9/21/2009 the kiss

Happy Eid to all Muslims.

Wow, fasting month is gone just like that. There are so many things I want to do during the fasting month which I've yet to do. Right now, all I want to focus on is Raya. With all the longtongs, raya money, visiting, high high heels and dressing up. Lol.

Okay, this is random. But i love Katy Perry. Just look at her. I love her make-up. Even my mom, say she's pretty. Gosh! and with her long curly, straight, bob and whatever hairstyles she got. She look amazing.

I want this eye colour.

Okay, right now. I'm going to learn the make up tips and learn on how to do it on my eyes, lips, face. Get that nice bronzer look.

Tips anyone?

I'll try to make it possible for you. But no promises made. I'm sorry.

9/16/2009 the kiss

I hate this feeling now.
And I'm hating myself for this feeling.
You're stuck in my head.
I'm down.
I'm crying my eyes out for you.
Don't you get it?
You're stuck in my head.

9/14/2009 the kiss

Okay. I've thought of changing my blog to onsugar. It just sounds nice. like www.somethingsomething.onsugar.com. Doesn't it sound nice. Hehehe. Okay.. right. I'm still lsot about it anyway. So i'll take my time to change it.
Well.. I finally cleaned my room and cleared out all my secondary school books and notes. I actually feel sad. All my 5 years of hardwork is gone. The pressure and stress of studying. All the nonsense bullshit stuff i write. and my most outrageous grades. hahaha.. All the memories in secondary school. How I miss it. I do. with the nosense stuff i get from my class. Lifting up skirts, shouting at the top of their lungs, sleeping during and after class, sneaking food into class and make the whole place messy. well, girls can jsut be like guys. Hahaha. lol. I miss all of it.

Okay, as you can see. I currently got no idea what to write. and im just rambling on. Stop this nonsense idayu.

9/12/2009 the kiss

"When someone loves you, the way he says your name is different. You know that your name is safe in his mouth."

Personally, I never actually experience real true love. So when I googled, this phrase came up. And it was calling out my name. (Ok, merepek) But it's nice isn't it?

Have you ever felt as though you think doing something so right can actually scares you?
Have you ever felt as though taking a huge step can lead you to somewhere nice?
Have you ever felt as though being love and cared for is the best feeling ever?

I've always been that person who is scared to do something and make something out of being friends with someone. I've always been someone who is sheltered by her comfort zone when it comes to these things. I've always been someone who shuts people away when it starts to get serious. So, right now. I don't wish to be that someone anymore. I want to take charge of it and not be scared. Friends tell me, I should take that step and move forward and not shut people away from my life anymore.

Cause it's you and me and all of the people
With nothing to do, nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people and
I don't know why I can't keep my eyes off of you

All of the things that I want to say
Just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words, you got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

I enjoy talking to you Mr Merepek. :)

9/10/2009 the kiss

Kiss on the hand means… I adore you.

Kiss on the cheek means.. I just want to be friends.

Kiss on the chin means… You are cute!

Kiss on the neck means… I want you.

Kiss on the lips means… I love you.

Kiss on the ears means… Let’s have some fun.

Kiss anywhere else means… You’re the best.

9/08/2009 the kiss

I've been wearing my new heels in the house the whole day today! I'm a happy girl! :)

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Okay. Let me update some of the dates I had.

Tuesday-1st Sept.

Went out with my Bis. It was a usual last minute planning but it will always turn out prefect. Being with them, just brighten my day and night. Spend some window shopping time with naz and everything there seem so tempting to buy. But no, I didnt spend. Hehehe. Sha wanted something traditional but there was no something traditional at marina so we headed off to buke at pizza hut. Our all time favourite date place. There's tons of memories at pizza hut. From after school lunch dates with them, to running out of school and eat pizza hut dates. Heheh. So as usual we spend our buke sessions at pizza hut. I miss them still. But we did some catching up after so long.. Sat down near esplanade and talk.

And Bis, you girls are not dark. The secret is sunblock. Lots of sunblock. Remember that I always use that on my face. Hehehe. Ohh. And Soya Bean. I love you just the way you girls are.

Thursday-3rd Sept.

Went out with my dear cousin. Been a long while since I met her. The last time I met was to only teman me to vivo to get my phone from repair. And again it was a last minute date with her. Current mood on that day was frustrations. Tired of guy drama. So hence, thats why we went out. I jsut needed some girl time with her. I know if there's anything I need or do, I can always fall back on her. So we had some girly cousin time. Lol. Headed to far east and window shop. Spend some long hours there while waiting to buke. So we buke-d at far east cahaya. Nice. Then I do not know what came on to us. We decided to head down to geylang. Just to feel the meriah-ness of raya I guess. And when I went there, I was disappointed. I wanted to hear raya songs all over the place. But no, I heard some indon band song called wali-cari jodoh. Hello?!?! It's call a raya bazaar for some reason. And then while walking for a while I finally heard some raya songs. Okay, then I was happy. Lol. I didn't know that walking in flip flops can really tire your feet out. At the end of the day both our feet are tired and sore, maybe from all the walking. How kesian. Then we chill-ed for a while and headed home. Merely tido-ed all the way home.

I love you dear cousin. 18 years together and counting.

Saturday, Sunday-5th & 6th Sept.

Well practically spend some time with family. Lots of time with family. I miss them. I do. I miss my mom's cooking. As usual she was busy with work. so she hardly cooks and I only get to eat her delicious food on weekends. Yummy. Had some laugh moments with family and also I had to finish my chores. More to come. Sadly. Ohh. But I got 2 new shoes from mom. Sandals for school and Heels for raya. I'm a Happy girl! :)

Monday-7th Sept.

Planned a day out with my two dear girls, Shirin and Nisa. Ironically I wouldn't know this two fun amazing girls without my best friend Jalil. I wouldn't think in the world I would be good friends with my best friends girlfriends. So spend some time with them. And again it's amazing and fun. All the shirin is always in her own small little world. While me and nisa just look at her. Had some catching up with them. Talk and merely open up about stuffs. I love the date I had with them. But then again walk around far east and then buke-d at puncak. Yummy! And I got no idea why I was so thirsty the whole night. Heheh. More dates with you girls soon. And when your boyfriends are back let's go out all togther like last time and go raya-ing.

Sorry for the position of picture. I was too lazy to change it. hehe :)

Tuesday-8th Sept.

Spend a day alone at home cleaning out my room. And played dressing up. heheh. Lol. I love my clean room. :)

I realise I have a lot of girl dates. Hahaha. That's how much girl company I have. And I love every one of them. Maybe now I need a guy company. *Hint* .....
Okay, this is quite a long post. Wow. well enjoy!

9/04/2009 the kiss

Have you ever wondered why the only one that warms your heart best had to be the one that smashes it best too?

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You want all my love
and my devotion
You want my love and soul
right on the line
I have no doubt,
that I could love you, forever
the only trouble is
You really dont have the time

You've got one night only
one night only
thats all I have to spare
one night only
lets not pretend to care
One night only
one night only
come on, big baby come on
one night only
we only have till dawn

I'm proud of my friend Tabitha Nauser. She did good. Okay and now im addicted to the song. I'm making a promise to myself that it's time to revamp myself. I'm showing you people a new Me. Lol. I'm serious.
1. Do my hair.
2. Yoga and Pilates.
3. Take care of my skin.
4. Start back doing something I love.
5. Get rid of the negativity.

This is a first for me to actually doing something good for myself. I'm proud. I'm practically pampering myself for the first time. This should be done before I turn 18. :)

oooh. I got a new shopping list.
1. New jeans.
2. Skirt.
3. Maxi dress.
4. Bomber jacket.
5. More dresses.
6. New school shoes.
7. More accessories.
8. Proper heels.

Ok. thats about it. I think. Heheh.