i have been spending my study breaks watching the hills. hahah i know i told myself and poeple i didnt want any drama but it seems nice to watch other people's drama. there was this scene from an episode that stephanie which is lauren's good fren dated lauran's ex boyfren. so obviously there is drama there. to some it may not be an issue but seriously dating your best fren or good fren ex boyfren is a total no-no. hahah then there's this episode whereby they all were dating out different men to see which is like the ultimate ones. and they feel that normal guys are boring.they want adventure. maybe to othr girls having an adventure for a bf is fun rather than the usuals like dinner and movies. its cliche. like seriously many guys need to think of other ways to bring a girl out to date. come on. if its a first date obviously first impression counts. surprise her, make her feel like she's the happiest person. talking bout this its been very very long since i've been on a date. i guess thats how i get to think alot about my very own first dates.dreaming of it and all. haha im such a loser. but wth its for my thrills. i dont mind. ok im done i got to get beck to studying. i need to burn more midnight oil. and i got many more papers to go. hahah wish me luck. tomy fellow friends. Good Luck.


ok i know im suppose to upload some raye pictures. but i cant seem to upload it inseide here. but i'll try and do it soon. i promise. and im currently busy studying.just one more month and im done with it. sabar idayu.
i am stress even though m face doesnt show it. but i really am. im scared to my wits ends. im crying constantly whenever i study. im scared i wont be able to make my parents be proud of me. its so scary. a whole BIG load is on my shoulders now. im really doing my best. im working my ass off proving to pple wrong.
look at the time. i should be sleeping rite? but im not. i drank a cup of coffee. wow it works man. hahha
som may not know this song. but some may know this song. its the most beautiful duet lyrics you can ever listen to. i swear.

There's someone out there for me
(I know there's somebody out there)
I know she's waiting so patiently
Can you tell me her name?
(Won't somebody tell me her name?)
*This life long search is gon' drive me insane
How does she laugh, how does she cry?
What's the color of her eyes?
Does she even realize I'm here?
Where is she, where is she, where is she?
Where is this beautiful girl?
Who is she, who is she?
Who's gonna complete my world?
Where is she, where is she?
Where is this beautiful girl?
Who is she, who is she?
Who's gonna complete my world?

Da da da da da da da
Da da da da da
Da da da da da da da
Where are you?

I'm starin' out at the sky
(I see you baby)
Praying that he will walk in my life
Where is the man of my dreams?
(I'm right here) Yeah, yeah
I'll wait forever, how silly it seems
How does he laugh, how does he cry?
What's the color of his eyes?
Does he even realize I'm here?
Where is he, where is he, where is he?
Where is this beautiful guy?
Who is he, who is he?
Who's gonna take me so high?
Where is he, where is he?
Where is this beautiful guy?
Who is he, who is he?
Who's gonna take me so high?

it may seem to be a very stupid song. but its really nice. its about two lovers finding each other. get it? well i know everyone is trying to find their someone well this song is for you. hahha. :)


oh welL.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO IDAYU.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME

well i know this year turning 17 is nothing much. and me having a birthday now is way to fast. everyone is busy. im not asking for much. but it just saddens me that i dont get a cake to blow and presents to unwrap. thats part of some life. well the best part is i did get to spend time with my loved ones. many many wishes made for me. thanks i appreciate it alot. (: