In my opinion, much of what people call "Love" is just "Infatuation". Infatuation has a lot to do with physical attraction and the "warm fuzzies" of a person's thought life like "Oh im so in love with that person". while a lot of the feelings of infatuation are the same as they are in real love, Love is more than just a feeling.
.Real love involves commitment to the other person; infatuation doesn't.
.Real love is more about how i can show i care for the other person; infatuation is more about how the other person makes me feel.
.Real love is based on really knowing the other person; infatuation focuses on the physical qualities and impressions about the other person.
.Real love lasts through disagreements and trials; disagreements and trials often 'bursts the bubble' of infatuation.
.Real love stands the test of time; infatuation doesn't lasts.

Found this nice passage of what it really means. so people who really wants to know. read this. dont misunderstood love and infatuation anymore. you may feel it now but is it REAL? that's the real question. and people im not feeling depressed over love or whatever. im not bothered by it. its just that people keep asking me. and i got irritated so well read this okay.


It was a rush, what a rush
Cause the possibility that you would ever feel the same way about me
It's just too much, just too much
Why do I keep running from the truth, all I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized, and I just got to know

Do you ever think, when you're all alone, all that we can be, where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love, is it real or just another crush
Do you catch a breath, when I look at you, are you holding back, like the way I do
Cause I'm tryin', tryin' to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away, goin' away

this is amazing. i didnt like david archuleta but then this song suddenly came to me and it relate so much to me on what im going through now. fuck it. why? making it more difficult isnt it. gosh. well i hope studying helps. cause seriously it does a bit. not been thinking too much about it but whenever im alone or just not doing anything it'll come back. like now. damn! i got to go back studying. just a few more months. but what will happen after that? will it be the same? or will be different? its not up to me but you. well lets pray.


have you ever felt as though everything in your life has crash. like there's no more hope in it. well thats how im feeling now. one heartbreak after another. again and again. my malay results were like shit. i didnt know what happen. i thought i did the best i could but why is that it was so bad. my dpa results got rejected. i feel so crushed. everyone's rejoicing and alleluing while im here crying my heart out till my contact lens came off. what is there for me now? nothing. iwhat? is it easy for people to tell me to just work harder on my other subjects. come on. its not that easy. im struggling as it is. im in a horrible state now. argh. i feel like there's no point for me. just thinking about all of it makes me cry even more. am i just not that good? what? can someone shine a light into my life and tell me what is wrong or happening to me. i need that answer oh ALLAH. as you know there's always a song which will help me boost abit of my confidence. it does not help that much but its okay i guess.

You're beautiful but you don't know
Can't see what's there inside your soul
Always feelin like you're not good enough
You wish you could be someone else
Sometimes you just can't see yourself
But I can see just who you are, who you are

You're exceptional the way you are
Don't need to change for nobody
You're incredible, anyone can see that
When will you believe that?
You are nothing but exceptional


i was listening to the alicia keys teenage love affair song. suddenly it got me thinking about my past teenage love affair.hmm.. let me remember my very first real boyfriend. i think it was when i was sec 3.that was the real one i suppose. we got hitched by our friends. cliche i know. it was new to me so i thought what the heck. i wasn't so sure about all this. but i know it was a nice feeling. the feeling of having someone there for you constantly. and someone to turn to when you're sad, lonely or happy. well it was nice while it lasted.then the bad stuff starts to happen. when you know your partner is so ready in a relationship but you know you cant commit. scary isnt it. well thats me. i knew he was like so into it. but deep down i wasnt. i was still young. i had a whole life ahead of me. more joy and heartbreaks. but whatever. i know then i wasn't ready but now? im still thinking. i want to be. but sometimes there's always that insecure feeling you have whenever you see other people kan? normal. but that feeling wont go away. thats why im half-hearted. hahaha. maybe after secondary school. just a few more months. maybe then i'll be fully ready. i hope i'll be. it'll be a fresh new start for me. no more drama.
im tired of constantly going home late from school and continue studying. penat tau. i just want everything to be over quick. just cramp up all the information into my head then im ready to take the paper. but well my brain is not that big. im no computer which can store everything. hahaha oh man.this are just some random posts. read if you pple want. its my blog anyway.


hey. hahah i know i shouldnt like come online this few days and even blog. but i cant help it lah. its like every single day i come home late from school after studying and i need some break. so i guess i turn to the computer. read gossips, blogs and shopping. i cant wait for this year to be over. i swear. firstly about my Os. i want it to be done. im tired of it all. then my prom. well that im excited but its so surreal. im graduating. i will miss my frens. and then to get insya'allah to poly. harap-harap i get in to the course of my choice and also to the school of my choice.
i hate empty promises.why? why must it always happen to me this way. this is why i do not like to end up and get stuck like this. argh. i feel so dumb to get reel in by this mess. why did i even agree to it. i should have think it through. i told myself i want a serious one and im sick of tired of having main-main ones. but how can i when i dont put myself forward. and even if i do i get hurt over and over and over again. doesnt that just suck. dont you wish you can just get a tape of your life. the past, present and future. and need not worry about anything.oh wells. like im not use to it. well this isnt that abd. im trying to think positively and think it the other way round but it will always end up to the exact same thing.
everybody says they want a prince charming. well what i want is just a gentleman.