it's a COLOURFUL life i'm living.

8/31/2009 the kiss

But tell me does she kiss 
Like I used to kiss you 
Does it feel the same 
When she calls your name 
Somewhere deep inside 
You must know I miss you 
But what can I say, rules must be obeyed

Well, have you ever had that feeling of regretting your mistake of letting someone you love dearly go? Have you ever thought if you just hold on a little more, there'll be something more to it? Have you ever thought that if you give the relationship time and patience, you'll see the fruit that bears from it?
Well, I think I know I have. I do. I have that moment. And that's the past. This is the future.
Right now, all I need is some answer that whatever I'm doing right now is right. I just need a sign and some reassurance. Please Allah, show that to me.

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Ever since holidays started, I've been a movie junkie. I've watched many many many many movies.
Yes, I love it. And as you can see, I'm a big fan of korean movies. I actually watched 5 korean movies. Hahaha! I'm a huge sucker for that. And yes, as you can see there's no horror movies. Only one, and I did not watch it alone. I watch it with friends. I suck at watching horror movies alone. Cause I'll just be covering my eyes while watching and only 1/4 of my eyes will watch it. and I'll put the volume down so I wont hear the eerie sounds. Told you. I suck at watching horror movies. Hehehe. And well I am a girl, and I love chick flicks. Just out of boredom. And it's really nice! Go watch. I have got no idea how many times I've watched Mamma Mia. I think it's my 2374896 times watching it.But every time I watch it, I get the same emotions watching it.It still gives me that excitement or even that thrill from watching it.

8/30/2009 the kiss

I miss dancing.
I do. I do. I do.
I really do.

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Beauty and the Geek.

I just watch the show. And I think its a good show to tell people about not judging a book by its cover.
Well, have you ever seen a not-good looking guy on the streets and just ignore him?
Have you ever met a nerd and thought he was boring?
Have you ever thought of even being friends with someone who lacks the same interest as you?
.......
Seriously, stop.
I'm stopping too. I'm not going to judge a book by its cover anymore also. I'm going to treat each one as how they should be treated. I'm not going to just think that nerds are boring and dull. When actually they look cute with those geeky specs and the books. They make some guys seem intellectual. And most definitely that's what girls go for. Intellectual guys.

Maybe now I can find my geek.

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Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you
Why can't I speak whenever I talk about you
It's inevitable, it's a fact that we're gonna get down to it
So tell me
Why can't I breathe whenever I think about you

Isn't this the best part of breakin' up
Finding someone else you can't get enough of
Someone who wants to be with you too

High enough for you to make me wonder
Where it's goin'
High enough for you to pull me under
Somethin's growin'
out of this that we can control
Baby I am dyin'

A new song addiction. Hehehe. Holidays can really bore me. Damn. I need dates. I need my girls.

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If you love something let it go,

If it comes back to you it's yours,

If it doesn't, It never was.

8/28/2009 the kiss

Look at how bored I am. After finishing my chores, I was inspired to lose weight and get that toned body I want for a long time! It's my new 18th year-old goal. Hahaha. Okay, nonsense. But whatever! If it keeps me motivated then be it.

3 Good reasons for wanting to lose weight

To get fit
To avoid health problems
To improve your self confidence

3 Bad reasons for wanting to lose weight

To make a bad relationship good
To make someone proud of you
To make someone like you

Hhahaha. See, the difference of wanting to lose weight. -_-
Okay, I'll post more on diet tips. I need the loo now. Bye! :)

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SCHOOL'S OUT! ♥

Okay, Mine the face. Hahaha. It was all due to studying. As I was bored and tired of studying for Ut's. Thats the reason for the face. And please... Do not tell me it's cute. Im tired of that word. I really am. I've been declared that word by many. I'm tired of it. Heh.

I'm Happy! I am! School's out for 5 weeks. and the best thing about it is that its during the month of ramadhan. Which means I'll just be fasting at home and need not worry about getting hungry or thirsty. But the bad thing is that I'll constantly be thinking and counting down the timing for breaking of fast. Shucks. Patience!

I had a movie marathon date with my lovely girls at Bimb's place but it'll be more fun with Titi and Ain there. Well we'll have more movie marathon dates! And i got no idea how it turn out to be a sleepover. That girl really knows how to talk people in sleeping over her place! But it was fun! It really was. I got no idea how giler I was at that very night. Walk around her place like nobody's business after that "stupid" confession thingy. And meditating with some stupid song. Honestly, if you guys were there I'll be 100% giler. Im going to miss you girls when we go our separate ways. Oh damn.

Okay, this is random. But its my first ramadhan after secondary school without my two girlfriends. Cause usually the month of ramadhan we'll be hanging out together and buke-ing together and also studying together. mainly it'll be like a 24/7 with them. I havent had my date with them! I really miss them. We're just too busy with our own lives. I've yet to tell them my stories. And please girls! Ask me out! I miss you! :)

...................

Im confused! I am.
I'm in a turmoil.
I don't know whether I should trust your words even though it sounds oh so convincing and it keeps me wanting more and wishing more. I don't know whether what I'm doing now is correct or wrong. I don't know whether I should continue on what we're having. It seems nice and yes, it's fate. But please make it convincing and maybe then I'll change my mind. I'm lost. I don't know what to do. I don't wish to break the friendship we've build and make it awkward and ruin it all over again like the last one. I don't know how to mend the friendship if its gone. You seem to be the one who always listens to my stupid stories even though it seems to bore you. Well, anyway.. Thank You!

My new "song stuck in my head"

If the sun shuts down and decided not to shine no more
I would still have you, baby
If we see the last day and they say we gotta go to war
I'll be fighting with you, baby
Cuz I know if I'm falling, you won't let me hit the ground
If the boat is sinking, I know you won't let me drown

No matter what anyone could say
This is the only place for me
And no one could ever take that away
Nothing could come between us

If the sun shuts down and decided not to shine no more (No more)
I would still have you, you, you ,you, you, you, you
If we see the last day and they say we gotta go to war (To War)
I'll be fighting with you, you, you ,you, you
Because it's us against the world
The world, the world
You know it's us against the world
The world, the world, ohh

8/20/2009 the kiss

cute [kyoot]

1. attractive in childlike way: endearingly attractive in the way that some children and young animals are
2. physically attractive: young and physically attractive

Okay. seriously, Im getting irritated by the word cute. Why do guys keep saying Im cute? Do I have a childlike face or am I physically attractive? I dont wish to be cute anymore. I want to be something else. Im so bingit whenever I get that comment from guys. Give me something else please! Seriously. Im done being that cute girl next door. Im done being some cute goody two shoes girl.

I want to show the world (okay,maybe not the world..prasan) that I can not just be that cute girl. I want to be different!

Tips anyone?

8/19/2009 the kiss

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Okay. Im not bragging. But I feel happy when I read this comment from my communications faci. Seriously. I feel overwhelmed by it. I really thought I wasnt showing my best during all his lessons. And I thought he didnt like me and he didnt see my potential in communications. And to me, it was an important module to score because its part of my course. I thought if I failed it, I dont know what will happen. It'll just be an embarrassment to me. I feel that the grade I got after 15 lessons was worth it. I am seriously happy. I can't stop looking at it. Now I can finally say it proudly that I can do communications. Alhamdulillah.

Gosh. This drama wont stop will they?

8/17/2009 the kiss

Thank you for believing in me when I found it difficult to believe in myself...

for saying what I've needed to hear sometimes, instead of what I've wanted to hear....

for siding with me....

and for giving me another side to consider.

Thank you for opening yourself up to me....

for trusting me with your thoughts and disappointments and dreams....

for knowing you can depend on me and for asking my help when you've needed it.

Thank you for putting so much thought and care and imagination into our friendship...

for sharing so many nice times and making so many special memories with me.

Thank you for always being honest with me...

being kind to me...

being there for me.

Thank you for being a friend to me in so many meaningful ways.

This ia to all my Girlfriends/Guyfriends who have been there for me.
Im missing you People.! :P

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The 3 Major steps of friendship.

The first step to make friends with someone is to make them like you. If they don't like you in the first place, it is unlikely that they'll be eager to become your friends. To let someone know that you are genuinely interested in them, simple gestures like a little smile and calling him by his name can lay the basic foundation. To make the other person feel important you need to be a good listener and encourage the other person to talk. Give your honest and sincere opinion but do not overtly criticize or make fun of him or her.

The second step of making someone your friend is to develop a mutual consideration between each other. You need to share his or her perspective and for that it is necessary for you to develop an inclination to see things from the other person's point of view. To become best of friends you must show a genuine concern and consideration for your friend's desires and opinions.

The third and final step towards friendship is to show your unconditional support and encouragement towards your friend. Moreover, you also need to be very clear about your expectations from your friend. If what you expect from the person you want to befriend, matches with what that person can and want to contribute in friendship, the developing friendship between you and your friend is assured to flourish, making both of you gratified with mutual emotional bonding.

8/11/2009 the kiss

Shucks. NDP is officially over. Im missing it already. Im missing my saturday nights spend dancing and making a fool out of myself and the late gelato treats. It was a blast. Im liking the fireworks. Stars and Hearts. pretty isn't it?
(pictures are all up on facebook) go check it out.

well, the night before NDP, sleptover nisha's place. and I had a great time spent with my girls. I swear it was awesome. Should do it more often. With our very own truth and truth with the conversation starter. and baked cupcakes for all the NDP people. decorating it all. Ate pizza late at night and spending the night like a club. With club songs that will just make you want to dance. Well, the dancing part was only spent in the early morning. Too tired to even dance at night.

Im going to miss my girls as how I miss my saturday nights. oohh.

Crap. UT is just around the corner. And guess what?!? Ive only studied a bit of problems. and I got many more to go. Damn. Someone just slap me now. Im so screwed. I really am!

*When I say jump, You say how high.

8/07/2009 the kiss

I wonder. What does the word commitment means? Seriously. From the bottom of my heart. Deep down. I am scared of that word even though I don't exactly know what it means? But all I can is that I am weak. I am weak when it comes to guys.
It's been a while for me dating someone.and getting myself comfortable with a guy. It's been a while since I went back in to the dating world. And all because I was scared. I was a chicken.

I wonder whether I ever had a first love? I had my share of ex boyfriends but have I ever had that first love? Thinking back. I don't. Its not something to brag about or talk about. But from my whole 18 years I have never been really IN love. Is it that bad? Gosh.

Where do broken hearts go?
Is it still etched in a piece of your heart? Or will it leave and fade away just like that? And if somebody loves you, Won't they always love you? Explain it to me.

No doubt. Mingling around and talking around is fun. Im getting much more comfortable with more people around me. Im getting that confidence of loving myself. Im appreciating the things around me. Sometimes I wonder why it took me 18 years of my life to appreciate it all and get that confidence. The confidence of loving myself and my body. It's coming back slowly. It is. Trust me!

Maybe because Im getting a year older and being in a legal age. It gets me thinking about it much deeper. It makes me understand life a bit more. Im loving you!

I'm going to miss my Saturday nights. Drooling at the uniform guys. No more of all that. Im going to miss this experience.

xoxo
Idayu.