I don’t think I want this anymore
As she drops the ring to the floor
She says to herself: ‘You’ve left before’
This time you will stay gone, that’s for sure

And he shattered something else
She dragged her suitcase down the path,
To the driveway.
She had never gone that far.

Normally this would be the time
that she would let him talk her out of leaving,
But this time, without crying,
as she got into her car, she said,

No happily never after,
that just ain’t for me, because finally
I know I deserve better after all,
I’ll never let another teardrop fall.

As she drove away she starts to smile,
Realized she hadn't for a while.
No destination, she drove for miles
Wondering why she stayed in such denial.

I'm done, I'm done
(Said I'm so done)
So done, I'm done, I'm done
I'm free, I'm free, I'm free
Free to be me.

She inhales an air she'd never breathed before...
The air of no drama no more

Another tear drop fall.

when i listened to this song. It really has alot to say about what im going through now. Im done. i dont want it anymore. Yes, I would lie if i said i wasn't begging for you to come back. but now that you want to enter back in my life. i dont think i want it anymore. i dont want that drama anymore. i wasnt yours properly anyway. there's no way for me to waste my tears on you. im too strong for that. I thought i needed you, but then again i was wrong. I was totally wrong. You left once, what makes me think that you wont leave again. Once bitten, twice shy. so right now all i can say is I'm done with you Boy. i really am.

eye-candy is eye catching.


I bust the windows out ya car
And no it didn't mend my broken heart
I'll probably always have these ugly scars
But right now I don't care about that part

I didn't wanna but I took my turn
I'm glad I did it cause you had to learn...

I must admit it helped a little bit
To think of how you'd feel when you saw it
I didn't know that I had that much strength
But I'm glad you see what happens when...

You see can't just play with people's feelings
Tell them you love them and don't mean it
You'll probably say that it was juvenile
But I think that I deserve to smile

ok this lyrics really shows what i feel now. but then I am feeling fine. like really really fine. But now i can proudly say that i found my own sunny day. I'm having my sunny days now. and i am happy. after all this happening in life, it shows me the true meaning of it all. I just dont want to trust any one of them now. im done.

Who'd ever thought that i would see this day....
Where i would see my ghetto life fade away...
Cos i was lost and couldn't find a way...
and now i look forward to every day....

Welcome to my sunny day...
my sunny day...
everyday....
a better day...
Welcome to my sunny day...
my sunny day....
every day...
a better day...
welcome to my sunny day...


I was waiting for you.
I was waiting for you.
I was waiting for you.

But then.. I guess the decision has been made.
there's no more time and effort for us to hold on any longer.
you are no longer mine. and I'm no longer yours.
we are done. we are through.

But deep down, you're still cherished in my heart.
Deep down I have a place for you in my heart.
Deep down the feelings still stay in my heart.

okay. I guess Im being emo now. stop it sia. but whatever. my blog. my life! so fuck off people. hahaha. ok that was so tak perlu. and super harsh. My bad.
damn. im loving my class. My class is like the biggest bitch in the building. E37H. i swear. everyday sial open the gossip corner. mass convo with everyone in the class. we can like merely talk about anything. thats fun! my class is freaking lame. we;e like making up this scandals in class where each one of us call each other syg, baby, darlings and etc. and my darling class scandal is Devar. hahaha. of all people kan. he is the best lah, making me smile and laugh everyday. from each of us not knowing each other as strangers to become close friends. I will definitely miss them. I will.
fireball is nice but a fucking lame ending. i jsut love the fight scenes minus the blood though. but everything else was good. the guys are Hot.. sweaty-sweaty with abs. ish. saliva meleleh ok...hahahah. next movie would be night at the museum 2. now thats a must watch movie. hahaaah.

ok i want to tido now. i got the freaking ndp thingy tmr morning. damn.
good night and toodles. :)


ohh. i've been feeling rather tired lately. like always always yawning. thats how tired i am when in school or going to school or in class. hahaahah. penat ah. im getting frustrated of having to do the same damn thing every fucking day. projects, research and presentations. but school's been fun cause i have a great bunch of classmates around me to make the class lively and fun. having mass convo every day talking about bull shit stuff. like mainly anything out of the blue. even about the faci. then suddenly out of nowhere during the convo we'll be laughing out loud. now my class got like 5 "scandals". we are fucking lame lah. seriously. and everyday there'll be a new video made by us. hahahahah. and i will not post the video here. its fucking embarassing pls.
i need like a proper girls day/night out with my girls. its always the others tagging along. sampai kene berbual kat dlm toilet. thats how pathetic it is. are we that freaking busy? hahahahah. oh wells.. lain class. of course lah hardly talked. i miss them. i do! i miss my other girls too. we need a proper proper meet up. not like just a dinner gitu whereby you see me eat. durh. a whole day to ourselves! kan best?!?

i miss him. i do. i really do.


And yes there are times when I hate you
But I don't complain
Cause I've been afraid that you would walk away
Oh but now I don't hate you I'm happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day

This is exactly what I am feeling at this very moment. It sucks. totally sucks. sometimes they say being in a relationship for the very early days are the best moments for you and your loved ones spending 24/7 together just being lovey-dovey. mine is totally the opposite of it. but I am being very sabar now. im just praying to be sabar. I really am. I am happy.
school has been keeping me occupied. my class is hilarious. they can be freaking horny but then again then can just make you laugh at that very moment. its fun! really fun. i feel so bad about bitching about her. but i really cant stand her. well I am not the only one. but really.. she irritates me. only good at bodek-ing the faci to get good grades. anyone can do that seh. even me. but it all comes down to your team members evaluation. hahahahha. sometimes i put her evaluation like crap. but its real honest truth okay. no lies.
oh! oh! oh! im currently addicted to this very very song.

I never thought I'd be in love like this
When I look at you my mind goes on a trip
Then you came in and knocked me on my face
Feels like I'm in a race but I already won first place

I never thought I fall for you as hard as I did (as hard as I did, yeah)
You got me thinking about our life, our house and kids (Yeah)
Every morning I look at you and smile
Cause boy you came around and you knocked me down (knocked me down)

[Chorus]
Sometimes love comes around (love comes around, love comes around)
and it knocks you down
just get back up
when it knocks you down (knocks you down)
Sometimes love comes around
and it knocks you down
just get back up
when it knocks you down (knocks you down)


school's been great so far. there's much more work to be done now then the 1st and 2nd week of school. some lessons im still seriously tak faham langsung. i feel freaking blur lah. like some useless freak gitu. but im getting the hang of it very soon. very very soon.
I miss my girls. I do. i feel bad cause im suppose to go out with them ystd but i had my ndp briefing. Im sorry girls. i'll make it up to you girls.
I miss him too. we've been busy with school.damn. he's been really busy. and hardly had time for me. shit lah. i hate it but then again i got to understand. but oh well. im still in love with him. I do.
ish i got nothing to talk about but there was so many things happening in my life. oh oh oh.

oh oh oh. i did something new to my hair. i cut bangs after so long of not having it. something new. but im not used to it yet. i dont know how to maintain it lah. but well. is it nice?







well.. its been a freaking long time since i blogged. i dont know what is wrong with me. busy sangat ke? hahah.. right. the above pictures are my fellow seriously giler classmates. they will make you laugh till you get stomach cramps especially titi and jas.there's this particular guy in my class who loves so much to disturb me.MR DEVAR! seriously. he loves disturbing me out of no apparent reason.hahah. fun lah. bring laughter to the class. i love my class. i do. we are all warming up. we will usually have our breaks filled with watching movies. school has been errmm.. puzzling. seriously. its not stressful but complicated.maybe baru getting used to poly studies.but i tend to understand the whole lesson after like an hour of reading to myself.thats how bad i get when i dont understand my lesson. my rp girls are amazing. our usual meet up during breaks and after school meetings. sitting and standing for hours just people watch and gossiping or just laughing about nothing. like mainly nothing and just laugh. thats how fun my school has been so far. its been a big big smile to me. im enjoying my time just not the lessons for now. hehehe.
ohh. i miss my Bis so much. i do. i really do. 3 more days till i meet them.the last time i met them was like 2 weeks ago. how long can that be. i got like a storybook to update to them. like that much! im sounding very bimbotic now. with all the likes. so tak perlu. but i dont know why im typing that now. just ignore the likes. heheheheh. i miss you girls. i cant wait for our meet up! i really do. i'll update more soon. very very soon. i promise. :)

kiss me through the phone.