oh! finally the day which i have been waiting for. school is starting. damn. i cant believe its here. seriously when i attend my first class. i was freaking a loner pls. i was the only CCC in my class.damn. i dont know hwo i can click in class.but we'll see. they seem to be nice pple though. been sick right after orientation ends. having a bad flu and a on and off fever. sucks big time. was suppose to meet jalil but due to being sick i had to cancel it. im so sorry my fren. but i orientation was superb. i had to introduce myself all over again. but it was all worth it. made great frens. the party thingy was fun too. it was something which i know everyone wont forget. like seriously. cause i know i havent forgotten it yet though.
ok for now. i have no clue nak pakai ape seh for first day. i want to make a good first impression. damn. i got no more uniform. and i need to pack my bag for school. hahaha. like finally eh after months of not schooling. oh i miss my girls badly. been a while since we chilled. i got so many sotries to tell them. and i know they got so may stories for me. i dont know when im able to go out with my people. cheyy. hahah. ok whatever thats so unnecessary.
i feel like taking out my throat and nose. its so itchy. ive been coughing non-stop and been having running nose. damn. i hate it. gosh. i hope i'll be fine in school. im going to meet you girls during break okay.we better meet!


To really love a woman, to understand her
You gotta know her deep inside
Hear every thought, see every dream
And give her wings when she wants to fly
Then when you find yourself lying helpless in her arms
You know you really love a woman

When you love a woman,
Tell her that she’s really wanted
When you love a woman, tell her that she’s the one
'Cause she needs somebody to tell her
That it’s gonna last forever
So tell me have you ever really
Really really ever loved a woman?

To really love a woman
Let her hold you,
'Til you know how she needs to be touched
You’ve gotta breathe her, really taste her
'Til you can feel her in your blood
And when you can see your unborn children in her eyes
You know you really love a woman

You got to give her some faith, hold her tight
A little tenderness, gotta treat her right
She will be there for you, takin’ good care of you
You really gotta love your woman...

this song is seriously a song which all guys should just listen to. to understand and to really love your woman. when i heard matt giraud sang it. i was so in love with this song. but i dont like him. i like alison and anoop. hahahha. ok stop it about the american idol lah. haiyo.
gosh. i actually have a lots to blog. but as you know im so the pemalas. hahahah. but oh wells. overall. Orientation was fun. really fun. tmr's the last day. hmmm.. it'll be exciting. oklah. my eyes getting tired. from school. hahaha. finally i get to feel the tired-ness of school all over again. i cant imagine i missed it.




My favourite memores are my memories of you.
My favourite moments are my moments of you.

Im going to miss my girls when school starts.seriously. Im going to miss our late night phone conference.our late nights webcam chats. our lunch dates. i cant believe its all beginning.a new life which i have always wanted. away from all the drama and shit ive been having. but then again. i will miss it.
sha, i know you're having your own problems to deal.but you know im always here for you even me being far away from you.gosh thats cliche. but its true. im waiting at the beginning.hahaha makes no sense in that particular line but its nice. hahahha.
im going to miss my sister when she's off to mexico for 3 months. i may not show it. but i really do. im not going to have anyone around to talk to. im going to be really lonely. we may not be the best of sisters or friends but i still love her. we do have our fights and bickering. well thats what sisters do. but deep down i do love her. i may show that i want her to leave but the truth. i dont. i dont know how im going to live without her. ive been with her my whole 17 life. its like im missing something deep inside my heart. and truth be told. while writing this im actually tearing. im like imagining that shes already gone when shes only a room away. gosh.. be strong idayu. be occupied with school.
ok merepek.
im so excited but scared at the same time for poly. i really am. everything is new to me. everything. but im ready for change. hahaha :)
gosh. hahaha.
im in love with this song now. i know its very old. but who cares.(i think i was born on the wrong era for music) hahahha.

Call up, ring once, hang up the phone
To let me know you made it home
Don't want nothing to be wrong with my part-time lover

If she's with me I'll blink the lights
To let you know tonight's the night
For me and you, my part-time lover

We are undercover passion on the run
Chasing love up against the sun
We are strangers by day, lovers by night
Knowing it's so wrong, but feeling so right

If I'm with friends and we should meet
Just pass me by, don't even speak
Know the word's "discreet" when part-time lovers

But if there's some emergency
Have a male friend to ask for me
So then she wont seem to be my part-time lover


I bust the windows out your car
And no it didn't mend my broken heart
I'll probably always have these ugly scars
But right now I don't care about that part

I bust the windows out your car
After I saw you laying next to her
I didn't wanna but I took my turn
I'm glad I did it 'cause you had to learn

I must admit it helped a little bit
To think of how you'd feel, when you saw it
I didn't know that I had that much strength
But I'm glad you see what happens when

You see you can't just play with people's feelings
Tell them you love them and don't mean it
You'll probably say that it was juvenille
But I think that I deserve to smile
ha ha ha ha ha

I bust the windows out your car
You know I did it 'cause I left my mark
Wrote my initials with the crowbar
And then I drove off into the dark

I bust the windows out ya car
You should feel lucky that that's all I did
After five whole years of this
Gave you all of me & you played with it

But it dont comfort....
But it don't comfort to my broken heart
You could never feel how I felt that day
Until it happens baby you don't know pain

Oooh Yeah I did it (Yeah I did it)
You should know it (You should know it)
I ain't sorry (I ain't sorry)
You deserved it (You deserved it)

After what you did to me (After what you did)
You deserved it (You deserved it)
I ain't sorry (I ain't sorry)
no no oh... (I ain't sorry)

You broke my heart
So I broke ya car
You caused me pain (You caused me pain)
So I did the same

Even though all that you did to me was much worse
I had to do something to make you hurt yeah
Oh but why am I still cryin'?
Why am I the one whose still cryin'?

Oh oh you really hurt me baby
You really you really hurt me baby
Hey, hey, hey
Hey, hey, hey
hey hey hey hey
now watch me yua
now watch me ha ha ha

I bust the windows out ya car

this song.. hahhaha.. makes me really feel it but then again it sounds so violent. can you just imagine the way you want to get revenge is by doing violent to the other person. thats not the way it is. so rabak. but the lagu is funny.well to me lah. hahahha.
i want badly to blog about the date i had with my Bis. but im too lazy. lagi the blogger dont allow me to upload some photos. so next time then. hahhaha. i'll just tell you now. it's a blast.


I think I did it again
I made you believe we're more than just friends
Oh baby, it might seem like a crush
But it doesn't mean that I'm serious

'Cause to lose all my senses
That is just so typically me
Oh baby, baby

Oops!... I did it again
I played with your heart,
Got lost in the game, oh baby, baby
Oops!... you think I'm in love
That I'm sent from above
I'm not that innocent

You see my problem is this
I'm dreaming away
Wishing that heroes they truly exist
I cry, watching the days
Can't you see I'm a fool in so many ways

But to lose all my senses
That is just so typically me

hahahha. this song is so dah lamer. but i heard it on the radio.and it brings back memories. hahahha. i thought they wont ever play this song anymore. i guess i was wrong. this song no meaning to me. just nice. hahahah.. shiok. okay for now i got nothing to blog and the letter "I" on my keyboard mcm susah nak picit. how bingit. hmph.


im seriously sick and tired of guys with their bloody excuses. entah mane they get all this fucking excuses. mind my language. im just so pissed off. but then again im lucky that i was only in contactable with these assholes.not in a relatonship. but im so tired of their constant excuse and reasons. worse than a girl.
merepek seh. where in the world you get this shit from? do they have like a book of stupid excuses or something? seriously. argh!!!
this is why i want a new beginning. dah penat of the same things happening.. gosh. entah. am i like curse ke pe? i cant find a decent guy. like serously when i found a nice decent type they give fucking bullsht excuses. banyak dorangnyer berbual ah.. stupid. nak hentam their face. ok super kekok for me typing in malay. hahahah
a week more to school camp and orientation. now at least i got something to look forward for. i cant wait for that.

But im still a happy girl. :)


Thats how happy i am even though i have this bullshit stuff in my life. mcm colgate advertisement. hahahahah. Brush uh, Brush uh, Brush uh.


ok... ive been on a shopping spree this month. happy seh! suke idayu biler shopping. like seriously. i shop till i cant shop no more. mcm orang giler. but it makes me happy. im a happy girl. no one can make me cry and sad anymore. NO ONE! hahahh.. some may be curious to what i buy well.....

stuff i bought/got.
1. 3 pairs of earrings.
2. a ring
3. charles and keith bag.
4. pull and bear shirt.
5. 2 cotton on long sleeves.
6. charles and keith sandals.
7. ipanema slippers.
8. knee length skirt from bugis.
9. long flowy skirt from bugis.
10. dress.
11. shirt from bugis.
12. hairbands from diva.
13. flutter sleeves blouse online.
14. clips.
15. cotton on jeans.
16. red laptop case
17. black pencil box.
18. stationeries.

hahahhahaha. i know i buy alot of stuffs. but i have a very good reasoon for it. school's starting and i need new clothes and accessories.. so thats my reason of buying all this stuff. oh wells. im going to stop now. i really am! hahhaha. as you may realise why i didnt put the prices there as when you guys see it. i bet it'll make you faint. cause when i calculated all of it. i almost fainted. seriously. im not a shopaholic and i dont go crazy. but hello! its the sale season. so take out your wallets pple. i feel happy. very happy. im happy with the place im in right now in my life. so carefree. seriously. nothing to worry about. but sometimes when i spoke too soon. things will start to change and things will happen. you never know.. im excited for camp. DCID.(thats the short form for my course) cause its just freaking long. hahahha.. im so exctited for it. do i sound excited? cause i really am!!!!!! meeting new pple. thank ALLAH i have haslina with me for my poly life. i wouldnt know what to do and how to get through my poly life without the pple i care for. sha and naz, even though we're in very far different schools. im still there for you girls. i love you. hheheheh.. see how happy i am. :)