i dont understand people. like what is so bad about rp. i know its a new poly and not a good poly or whatever.and they have the reputation to be a relek poly. but wth. but i guess i cant change everyone's perspective of rp. to me its a blessing just gotten accepted in a poly. i thought i might screw up my Os and my life would be in a turmoil deciding on what school would want me and all. but then alhamdulillah i got into a poly and with a course close to what i want to do. im happy with that. im happy that my parents and sister are supporting me in all this.
i just want to start everything a new. i cant wait to see the people in school. im tired of my old life. i mean im tired of the same things happening over and over again. sheesh. oh wells.. its been a while since i blog. my blog seems plain now. real pain. i got lots of stuff happening but im just so lazy to type. ish malasnyer.
long story short.


Im tired of guys.


You're anything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could have been
But still you live inside of me
So tell me how is that

You're the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I love to not forgive
And thought you break my heart
You're the only one

And though there are times when I hate you
Cause I can't erase the times that you hurt me
And put tears on my face
And even now while I hate you its pains me to say
I know I'll be there at the end of the day

I don't wanna be without you babe
I don't want a broken heart
Don't wanna take a breath without you babe
I don't want to play that part
I know that I love you but let me just say
I don't wanna love you in no kinda way, no no
I don't want a broken heart
And I don't want to play the broken-hearted girl no no
No broken-hearted girl
I'm no broken-hearted girl

There's something that I feel I need to say
But up 'til now I've always been afraid
That you would never come around
And still I wanna put this out
You say you got the most respect for me
But sometimes I feel you're not deserving of me
And still you're in my heart
But you're the only one

And yes there are times when I hate you
But I don't complain
Cause I've been afraid that you would walk away
Oh but now I don't hate you I'm happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day

Now I'm at a place I thought I'd never be, ooh
I'm living in a world that's all about you and me, mmm yeah
Ain't gotta be afraid, my broken heart is free
To spread my wings and fly away, away with you,
Yeah yeah yeah, oh ohh...

gosh. i never posted a broken hearted song before. this is a first. well there's always a first in everything. seriously. right now.this is the feeling i get. the feeling im feeling. gosh and it sucks. how badly i wish this feling wont come. but i really am. i dont know. im confused too. im trying to cry but i cant. i really do. im taking a risk but there's nothing you did to prove it. why? well whatever this song can just tell you whatever im feeling now. it tells you my story now. exactly.


If anyone can fill my world with joy and happiness
and cast away all of my loneliness
always there beside me when I am down
and never left my face with the frown
Its you! Yes, it is you my friend who can make it all come true
Its you! Yes, it is true a friend in need is a friend indeed

When youre around, I wrap myself in a pearly smile
When youre around, you light the bulb inside my head
When youre around, I wrap myself in a pearly smile

When youre around I dance and sway
And kiss the ground

When youre around, I laugh and sing out song in loud.

my new favourite band. Mocca. gosh when i heard them played ystd i was like a real hard core fan gitu. padahal i only heard of them for like 2 songs and it was a random thing. Me and sha didnt even planned to go to hear them play but i guess it was a good decision to. after hearing them play we wanted so badly to see their faces. as being the shortfarts we are. we had to squeeze through tall people.. i had to squeeze my head in to small openings just to see them.but then lepas they play they have an autograph signing. which as usual we didnt know about it. we had none of their cds, photos, not even a paper or a pen. thats how unprepared we was. but then again we did got a picture with them. with my pathetic handphone picture. and i look fugly seh. gosh! im going to edit my face. for the first time i had no fringe. thats how fugly i might look.usually when i have no fringe it'll be at home.but yesterday i was very malas to care bout how i look lah. heck lah. hahahahha


Pick up the phone baby
Please dont miss my call
Pick up the phone baby
Cause im waiting on the other end

have you ever felt as though you tried so hard for that mr right to come and sweep you off your feet. well i have. and i did wait for my mr right to come and sweep me off my feet. i took the courage, the risk and the guts to fight for my mr right. and i really feel as though he's there but i cant have him. i dont know? i dont know what else i should do anymore. should i keep waiting or move on. he says he's going to be there for me. he was so sure of it. damn. i feel like a fool. i give calls, and wish that he would reply or call me back but none. i dont know what im doing now. what else am i waiting for. is there even a thing to wait. is there my fairytale ending in the end? is there that happy ending which i have longing for in him? i do ask this questiions but i dont know why i cant seem to get the answer from him. but i know he cares. i do. i really do.

I want to be with you every night. I want you to ask me,”Am I hugging you too tight?”







hahahha. I just got my new laptop. and i guess there'll be more of all this pictures that i put in my blog. ahahha. when im bored i'll just take endless pictures and post it. maybe at home, in school or whenever. oh wells. gosh this holidays, there's really alot of gossip around. exciting. seriously. after so long not meeting the person and jut listening to their news. its fun! hahahahha.


Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

You are not alone
I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
You are not alone


oh oh oh. i have watched 3 korean movies plus shows, 1 bollywood movie, 3 english movies and some videos. can you just imagine how free i was. hahah. and a bollywood film dah lah take 3 hours to watch. i just ist right in front of the tv and dvd set and watch. hahahha i even watch a rerun of friends. i think due to not schooling i got back my old lazy self. the idayu who just sits in front of the tv and watch non-stop. but now. i have stopped. im just occupying my time with work. school, family and etc. i just try to keep myself occupied. hahahhaha.
went enrolment yesterday. well i expect that it will be a lot of people just not that A LOT of people. hahahah how kiasu singaporeans can get. well i am one of them. but yesterday was just so rabak. there's just too many people. i had to wait, wait, wait and wait some more. queue, queue, queue and more queue for merely 6 hours until everything else was finished. i have no freaking clue why they just do not want to do all this enrolling stuff online. kan senang tak payah menyusahkan orang all. haiz. dont ask me cause i myself am new to all this.

gosh i dont know why i feel the tension close to us. we are so close but yet why are we treating each other like this. i feel as though you're degrading me. am i really that low to you. lke seriously? i know im not that smart, pretty or whatever. but im me.and thats how people accept me. but why do you always just say all this indirect remarks to me. it may be nothing to you. but it means a lot to me when i hear all that. am i really not good enough for you? why? keep me that reason, why?

labels. im just too confused about everything else.


You said move on
Where do I go
I guess second best
Is all I will know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes

hahahha since i cant get the first best. i have to opt for second best. hahahah.some may be thinking what in the world is this girl talking about. oh well.sometimes in life you cant get whatever you want. and to me i know that i cant get whatever i want. im not thse pampered girls. its just that its been a while since i last got attached but when i found a nice guy to talk to. he seems to go mia. and im just frustrated of that and im so over it now. done. gone. so now im just aiming for second best. even in my academics. i cant be the first best so i went for the second best.okay im talking crap. its been raining since morning and im stuck at home. firstly, its cold and im lazy to go out. secondly, its nice to stay at home with alif and im lazy to go out. thirdly, i jsut got sutff to do at home and im lazy to go out. so overall im just lazy to go out. stick my ass in front of the computer picking out what laptop i wanna buy. hahaah. cause tmr i got enrolment stuff to do. heheeh. im excited. its one step for me starting school. im like a new school kid. its like being a primary school kid all over again. hahaha my mom actually wants to send me to school on the first day of school for me and my family thot that during orientation parents are allowed. how cute. hahaha i guess they still see me as the kid in the family as im the youngest. hhahaha. so it all makes sense.
but well i guess when in poly i'll grow more matured and more grown-up. i guess thats the side my family would want to see me grow into. grow as an adult. wow. that word jsut scares me. like a whole new responsibilities for me. and i have to pay more. everything will just be adult fare. damn. start saving Nur Idayu Arifin. hahahah. my full name. actually its suppose to be together like the Nur and the Idayu. but then i dont know somehow it jsut got separated until now. haaha. ok i dont know why im telling you about my name. oh whatever.can you see how bored i am. o
ok im done. till then. toodles. :)


LIBRA - The Lame One
Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! However, not the kind of person you want to mess with... you might end up crying... Libras can cause as much havoc as they can prevent. faithful friends to the end. Can hold a grudge for years. Libras are someone you want on your side. Usually great at sports and are extreme sports fanatics. Kinda dumb at times.

hahhaha how kesian. Librans di panggil dumb and lame. but oh wells. everything it said i true. i find it very true. i can gladly say i am all of that. hahahha there are my ups and downs. especially the part with " their love is one of a kind". wow. my love is one of a kind. so people do not take my love for granted. its one of a kind tau.cant get it anyway. hahha how lame. ok it definitely shows how lame i am. and some people should not mees with me. you dont know what outcome you will get. hahahahah!(its supposed to be an evil laugh but i failed). and YES, i am a faithful friend. very faithful. i dont like fakes. im sorry but its true. im not sure whether i do hold grudges to pple but to anyone who have done me wrong and apologised i know that for the fact i have forgive them but maybe i havent forget ah. but i can assure you that i dont hold grudges maybe for a while but then im okay. :) hehehhe.




hehehehe. well this picture is not that funny. but it makes me smile. and this few days its very hard to make me smile. i actually got stuff to think about and stuff to stress about even though i may seems free.im like just thinking through about this guy. i swear. after all this while i still dont understand them. what are they thinking? what is he doing to me. gosh. help me. im getting my mind off him by gym-ing, tv-ing,computering and baking.
everything seems so blank now to me. like i just got nothing to do. oh and guess what. im being a bimbo now but im not. i painted my nails 3 times just so it looks perfect. but it'll be gone in a week. how stupid. see how free i am? hahhahaha.
well to my darling atiqah. amazingly we are going through the same shit but being so far from each other. you have helped me through it all the way well even though only online. but remember lets wait patiently until we find our answer. and i love you.


i know i havent start school yet and no, im not super busy that the sempat blog. its just that i was too bloody lazy. as usual. idayu is lazy. hahhhaha mind me pple. im back to blogging now.
well i can gladly pronounce this week as workout week with my cousin. we have a whole week plan just to exercise. gerek ah! i swear after so long of not exercising it realyl doesnt help for my body. well i just came back from the gym. spend mainly a good 2 hours there just exercising and getting toned. i like. well we were suppose to go swimming after gym but well when the time comes it just had to come. well of course its the period. hahahha. i was so darn pissed. i was so excited that i finally get to go swimming but then this! darn. bingit tau.
oh wells. nvm. im like getting bored this days. been going out either with frens or alone. im just going out, spending time and money. i feel so bad.
oh now. i get to catch up on alot of sleep. since its been raining non-stop in the afternoon and evening. its a nice time to get some sleep. like really alot of sleep. shiok! ahahahhaha! im getting bored. oh no. i got nothing to blog about. my life's boring now. damn it.