sudahlah jangan menangis lagi
ku rasa cukup sampai di sini
mungkin di suatu saat nanti
kau temui cinta yang sejati

sudah cepat lupakanlah aku
jangan pernah ungkit masa lalu
ku takut kekasihku pun tahu
kau pernah menjadi simpananku

when i heard this song. it makes me cry. seriously i was merely in tears just listening to it. over and over again. this song will just hit right at the spot.
well merely this song is about this guy who already has a gf but he also has a "simpanan" girl. i dont know how to say it in english. then finaaly he cannot take it anymore and decided he has to decide. so he told his simpanan girl to leave him and just let it go because he wants to be with his gf and he doesnt want his gf to be hurt. so overall he has feelings for the gf but he jsut wants some fun with the simpanan girl. i swear listening to this song brings back some memories. good and bad. all the crying moments. the big eye bags. and the long long days of not sleeping.
hahaha. ok i being so emotional and sentimentel. but well im bored. and when boredom comes and invade me this is what i do.search for songs and post about it. gosh. idayu, i should seriously get a life. hahahaha. im like stuck at home and date-less. i wanna go out. i need to widen my circle of frens. heeheh. i need more contacts so i wont be bored anymore stuck at home. my whole holiday is like a routine if im not going out. just like in secondary school. everything was a routine. i miss school and i miss being busy. last year i always complain about not having any free time and how tired i am due to Os. but now i amazingly i miss all of it. seriously. pple may think im giler. but i really. just try being stuck at home for months without nothing to do only chores tv and computer. sigh. hahaah! oh wells. just one more month. sabar! sabar! sabar! oh i cant wait to enrol myself in poly. i will have alot of paperowrk to do and stuff to be paid. oh and buying a laptop for myself. i thought abt it. i think i wanna buy the white laptop. hmmm.. i hope it does have a webcam installed in it. if not i might buy the one with webcam but with a not-nice colour, the normal laptop colour. hehehehe. then i'll get brief about orientation. now after so long. thats one thing that im looking forward for. hahaah. after so long.


will you still love me tomorrow?

i think thats everyone's question to their loved ones when they like baru-baru masok in a relationship or when they are confused in their relationship. thats the question which everyone is scared of. imagine, just imagine. that one day the person loves you and the next the love is all gone.ouch. i know.
well, as a matter of fact i actually know why peopledo that. cause i had that feeling once. loving a person is the toughest job in the world. well to me i feel that way. i dont know about anyone else. cause being in love or being loved. thats a whole different stories. hahaah
ala. as you all know why i post that phrase. cause saturday was valentine's day. its not like i celebrate. not even in my religion. everyone should appreciate and show their love to their loved ones everyday not only on valentine's day. oh well. i spent it wisely. with some sister romance or how aishah would say is sisromance. had my valentines day lunch with my Bis. they brighten my day. merely sat there for an hour or so. and just talk non-stop. ketawe. i think we were the loudest there. hahahaa. then headed off to kallang for netball traning. tournament's in a weeks time. im so not prepared.havent played in months.oh god!im terrified.training was quite tough. have to build stamina all over again. and now my body have to pay the price. its all sore. hahahah. oh god. im blabbering. ok stop it! thats it.
goodnight! :)


Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
Im beginning to see the light
Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
But I think i'll be alright

I guess this valentine's day im going solo tonight. hahah. what a joke? right? im always alone on this special day. but i have my friends with me every step of the way! heheheh. anywhoo. this song is just nice. stumble upon it. and keeps on playing constantly in my computer.
oh! oh! oh! im so excited. i just got my letter from rp. hehehe. my enrolment form and stuff. im glad and bersyukur that i got into a poly. i swear. now all i need to do is enrol and apply myself in the poly asap. hahahaha! oh.. im getting my laptop too. exciting dok! seriously. my orientation's going to be on the 15-17 april. eehehhe!! when poly starts i'll be busy. and guess what. so ironic but i cant wait to be busy. technically ive been free for a few months now. so being busy is exciting to me. new everything! but i have to wait for another month or so. damn! sabar. i still got shopping and situate myself in poly life. hehehe :0


According to your age, list down the number of things that most people don't know about you.

1. I cut my own fringe.
2. I lie & cheat.
3. I throw my food away.
4. I broke many hearts.
5. I bite my nails.
6. I love to chew on yuppiee gummy bears or worms.
7. I clean my room at least once a year.
8. I need my pink bantal every night.
9. I ALWAYS kiss my mom before i sleep.
10. I can get paranoid at the littlest things.
11. I have my own theories on boys.
12. I'm a sucker for cheap stuff.
13. I have an obsession with accessories.
14. I'm a big baby. I cry alot.
15. I'm very very afraid of clowns & mascots.
16. I can't ride the skate scooter.
17. I have a dream of the PERFECT boyfriend.


Can’t make up my mind, about the boy
Sometimes he brings me down, sometimes he brings me joy
I want him around, but he’s never in town
Can’t make up my mind, oh no

But I love him even though my friends say he’s not right
I know it’s true but can’t deny he’s on my mind

Chorus
I love him I love him I love him I love him
I love him I love him I love him I love him
And there ain’t no other that I’d put above him
I’m so mad about the boy

Can’t make up my mind about this guy
Sometimes he makes me smile sometimes he makes me cry
Other guys have tried, but he’s the one i like
I’m so mad about this guy

Call it what you like but I ain’t no love fool
You would understand if he was loving you
We’ve had our ups and downs, but i still want him around
He is the one, I know is true

im in love with this song. you may think im in love. but nope. hahahah. this song is very the lovestruck kind. heehhehe.its like a girl liking this guy but her frens dont agree with her dating him. and she doesnt know what to do. cause he's complicated. but deep down she still love him. hhehhehe.sweet kan?!? okay im being giler.
im being frenly. talking to anyone and everyone now.widening my circle of frens. there's no harm in that. my circle of frens is quite small as you may say. i dont believe in having many many frens. but few close frens. but many acquaintances. i think?
ohoh.. i just went shopping. hehehe bought myself a nice top for school. but i will be wearing it soon. like durh. tak sabar.hahaha. now i need is new stationeries and new pencil box and new bag. i need new all. heehhe. i sound so rich. alhamdulillah. its just some money i've been saving to get my stuff. im not high maintenance or whatever.im normal. hehehe. oh wells. im done being lame. going to kacau some people online. yes ah! :)


You can discover more about a person in an hour of play than in a year of conversation.

i was reading this book.and this phase catches my eye. hahaha macam paham. but seriously. sometimes you may feel that you know the person so well even though you know each other like 2,3,10 years. whatever. but do you really know the person? hahah ok its complicated but to those who might understand can explain.i cant explain. hahah im no good. and even though you only know the person for 1,2,3 days or 1 week it doesnt matter. because deep down you know the person inside and outside. with the shortest period of time you will get to know the REAL person. it doesnt matter aboutt he period but the time spend.thats important. im speaking like im so good in this relationship thingy when i had quite a few failed relationships the past few years.im just learning it by reading, listening and experince. this allows me to understand and not make the mistake people are making.
okay well im still stuck at home doing nothing. oh wait. i am doing something. im being an old maid. cleaning,washing and cooking. hahahah as some may know i cleaned my room after 2 years filled with junk. hahaaha.
im turning 18 this year. and guess what im dateless. its not like a big deal. but turning 18, well hello. yes it is.valentine's day is round the corner. and usually this special lovey day is always spent in school by giving each other presents and hugs. but now since im school-less ive yet to go on a date with anyone. hahahaah. and i'll be spending valentine's day alone again. oh wells. no suprise in that. this happens for like my whole life. i never get to share or spend any special occasions with anyone not even with my bfs when i was with them.not a birthday. not an anniversary.it always backfires. i think im jinxed in relationships.oh it sucks but well. im enjoying my life. yes i am. hehehee..
oh i cant wait for school to start but well i got to know some pretty bad news. well for me lah. im not going to say it cause i dont want to start any drama anymore. im so done with it. seriously a whole secondary school life i was filled with drama. penat. oh so very the penat. im drama-less now. hahahaha. ok im talking crap now. cause oh look at the time. its pass my beauty sleep. right? heehhe. :)


oohhh. im posted to republic poly Communication and Information Design.im glad i got accepted to a poly. im going to do my very best in it. be more discipline this year. no more kidding sround.heheheh. oh yes im in the same course as my primary school best fren. we've been separated for 5 years due to different secondary schools. well i guess its fated that we're back together. can go to school together since we both lived in bishan. im excited for that. hahaha. i am. me and her have been trying to catch up with each other for a long time. the last time i talked to her was months ago and it was a terserempak thingy also. i was on my way home and so was she. then we ended talking below my block for hours(with my smelly school uniform) oh wells. she lives very near me. few blocks away. cool kan! yay!

finally now i can clean my room. been waiting for the perfect timing to clean my room. get rids of my secondary school stuff. but i'll keep the memories though. its 5 years of memories being in a girl's school. you should see how many plastic bags i have. and everything's inside got to go. full of my book and papers and loads of rubbish. i think there's like 6 bags. heheh. and my dad has to carry and throw it all away for me. hahaha. im quite malas to kluar rumah since ive been cleaning my room plus house. oh i've been cooking too. improving my cooking skills and baking skills. the way to a man's heart is through his stomach. so hahahah.

my new current fave song.i swear its addictive. hahha

there's only two types of people in the world
the ones that entertain
and the ones that observe

well baby I'm a put-on-a-show kinda girl
dont like the backseat
gotta be first

I'm like the ringleader
I call the shots
I'm like a fire cracker
I make it hot
when I put on a show

I feel the adrenaline moving through my veins
spotlight on me and I'm ready to break
I'm like a performer, the dancefloor is my stage
better be ready, hope that ya feel the same

all eyes on me in the center of the ring
just like a circus
when I crack that whip, everybody gonna trip
just like a circus
don't stand there watching me
follow me, show me what you can do
everybody let go, we can make a dance floor
just like a circus

there's only two types of guys out there
Ones that can hang with me
and ones that are scared
so baby, I hope that you came prepared
I run a tight ship, so beware

ps. i cant get you out of my head.