I wanna make love right na na na
I wanna make up right na na na
Wish we never broke up right na na na
we need to link up right na na na

Okay i know the first line of this song is very macam merepek. but the third line is where it all hits me. ini kan lagu break up. hahaha! have you ever regretted breaking up with that someone? well i know i have. It happen when i was in sec 3. well mesti ah.. i was still in the studious mood asik nak blajar je. thats why i wasnt ready for any relationship but to think of it now. he was amazing to me. like the perfect guy who would do anything for me. and i mean it. oh and i was the first girl who made him cry. touching kan. but i was so stupid at that time that i had to break up with him. well random post lah. but for a while i do regret it but the now tengok balik i dont regret it cause i know i willl find that special guy soon. kan dulu secondary 3 gitu mesti all you think about was school kan. maybe not to all but to me yes thats why i broke up with him. kesiankan. kalau i stay on i think we could last. hahah. right? with me being the gf? ye lah tu. i think im the one with problems. and its true. i have a problem of commitment. i cant commit to a relationship longer than like what 5 months gitu? pathetic kan!?! haiyer.
tapi itu dulu. i think? watch all this love movie and tengok all this geli-nak-muntah-darah couples make me jealous. yes i do admit it. it makes me jealous. like hello? i've been single for 2123058 months. hahah exaggerate je? of course mesti ade that part of jealousy in you where you wish it would be you instead of her. tak baikkan?! oh no! stop it idayu. but well i do miss it sometimes. those late night calls where he will entertain your nonsense malam-malam, those sayang msges, those send you home and fetch you, those cute walks. siape tak miss kan? ok i dont know why im being so lovey dovey. this is so not me. i swear. i think its because i was watching this stupid love story lah. darn it lah idayu. asal kau tengok cite love? what to do? bored ape. i need something to entertain myself kan?!? apart from going out with my frens with our super long hours of catch-up marathon. berbual non-stop. ala just give us a cup of coffee, milo or drink of any kind and three seats we can just sit there like berjam-jam and talk non-stop i tell you. about anything and everything and even people watch. fun! oh updating about myself now rather than nonsense shit. i've been exercising alot this days. gym, run, swim. wow. for like berbulan-bulan i havent exercise suddenly turn back to exercising super sudden change to my body. hahaha. but its refreshing. shiok. especially the running and swimming. i love it. i feel lighter already! hahaha! ok well as you see the time its 12+ and im suppose to be asleep but im not even though i spend like half a day at the swimming pool with cousins and aunties swimming and playing. like hello idayu! you're suppose to tired. but i dont know why im not. macam energetic gitu. ya Allah. bagus pula my body. but i do need my beauty sleep lah. holiday pun boleh dapat eyebags eh. hahaha merepek. toodles. i need some shut eye. i think?