sometimes i wonder the difference between a lover and a friend. until i found the answer soon enough.

A Best Friend
Someone who is concerned with everything you do, Someone to call during good and bad times, Someone who understand whatever you do, Someone who tells you the truth about yourself, Someone who knows what you are going through at all times, Someone who does not compete with you, Someone who is genuinely happy for you when things go well, Someone who tries tro cheer you up when things don't go well, Someone who is an extension of yourself without which you are not complete.

thats what friends and best friends are for. There are many acquaintances in the world, but very few REAL friends. You can hardly make friends in a year, but you can lose them in an hour. thats what i felt. but why must the world be this way? cant everyone just live without and complaints and hatred. i know im sounding emo or whatver. im just irritated. i can no longer be taken down by people.

A Lover
I'm looking for a lover not a friend
Somebody who can be there when I need someone to talk to
I'm looking for someone who won't pretend
Somebody not afraid to say the way they feel about you

And I'm looking for someone who understands how I feel,
Someone who can keep me real and who knows always
Baby I like to have you in my way
And I'm looking for someone who takes me there,
Wants to share, shows he cares
Thinking on the one that I've been waiting for

I'm looking for someone to share my pain
Someone who I can run to, who would stay with me when it rains
Someone who I can cry with trough the night
Someone who I can trust who's hardest right
And I'm looking for someone

im just looking for that particular someone. is that too much to ask. why? why must those girls get what they want while girls like me are just left behind. i know people keep saying that we are the treasured ones where the right people are ours. but isnt that too cliche? like hello. its the 21st century. grow up people. be realistic. especially me. oh gosh.


Things I Got To Do For 'O's

1. I got to concentrate in class and not sleep anymore.
2. i will have to ask teachera and friends when in doubt.
3. Revise every 24 hours what i studied in school.
4. Make notes and spider-grams and circle keywords.
5. Have ample rest for the following day so i wont get eye-bags and dark circles.

Things I Need To Do For A Toned Body

1. Run at least 10 rounds around the school track for at least 3 times a week
2. Do at least 50 sit-ups and 50 push-ups
3. Carry weights(filled water bottles)
4. Eat moderately

Things I Want To Change In My Life In 2008

1. Set my GOALS and Priorities straight
2. Focus on what i want but not what i need
3. Think positively
4. Not repeating the same mistakes i made in 2007

I know doing this may be late. but well its my blog anyways. just after the super teen. it made me realise alot about myself and seeing my results making my realise even more. i just screw up the first 2 months of 2008. i cant continue on like this. there will always be setbacks in life. i just have to learn and get over with it.hahha.
many people have been asking me whether im ever going to have a boyfriend now. even atiqah asked me. i wasnt intending to think about it. but then again having one its not a bad idea too. its just that i havent found the right perfect one yet. i cant just be some despo girl who goes around asking for their numbers. im not that kind. im rather shy at this areas. i just couldnt be bothered with it nowadays. but i had many serious thoughts about having the perfect one. i want a guy with a nice torso with just "not-so-big-yet-so-small" muscles, nice hair which i can play with it and amazing eyes which i can just stare into everyday. i want a guy who wears that 3/4 black or white pants with a normal shirt or t-shirt. something very laidback and slack yet nice and cute. i especially want a guy taller than me but not so tall. and also a nice perfect attitude. just the right kind will do.am i asking to much? sometimes girls just want their perfect guy. and well this is mine. i know its impossible. but im willing to try and wait. even though he doesnt have the whole factor which i just mentioned its okay. i'll still accept him for who he is. but for now. just read the lyrics and it'll tell you more about what i had gone through in love.

Closed off from love
I didn’t need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you’re frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melted to the ground
Found something true
And everyone’s looking round
Thinking I’m going crazy

But I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

so for now. i keep bleeding in love. my heart just cant take anymore bleeding and anymore piercing. :)