finally im blogging. i swear it has been long. i got alot of stuff to blog. but i just dont know where to start.hahahaha! firstly the most important thing is that i pass my N results. thank you ALLAH. thankfully all of my frens get to go up to sec 5. and we'll be mugging our ass off just for Os. i cant believe that i have only a few days left to enjoy my holiday before school start. oh why must it be ending so fast. this weekend will be a blast. i'll be going for some picnc and chalet. and its going to be my Bi's birthday.

You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true.
well i havent found that yet.
oh i havent blog about the most horrific thing that happen to me yet. i swear i dont know what i was thinking and doing at that time. i didnt even see it coming. maybe its because i trusted you so much. and i put all my hopes and love onto you. but this is how it had to end. you're so bloody coward as to just leave me alone with all the mess. i had to do it all over. i was so angry and frustrated but i wasnt sad or heartbroken. i guess too many anger was in me. i just couldnt believe it still. i need and do want some answers from you. and that it will defintiely ease my mind a bit. i just need some answers. i guess if this is my fate and i guess this is how ALLAH want me to do. as what i've learnt at camp is to be bersyukur and sabarwith whatever obstacles i have in life. im grateful that i still have my frens with me and i can fall bak on them and they will always be by my side.
i always have this desire to be with someone whom i love and to share my every moments with him. i guess i will get that one day just not now. i thik right now i'll just focus on my exams. hehehe. this is a great opportunity to just have eye-candies and drool over some hot guys you see at town. i swear its fun.
i cant believe i wrote like a one whole full paragraph about my life. i know some pple couldnt be bothered with it. but i just felt like writing it. and its my blog anyway. i'll write if i want too.

i have to get caught up with the new movies this days. i think im like the only person who hasnt watched enchanted, alvin and the chipmunks, national treasure and i am legend. oh wow! its not like i was busy or anything and i cant find time to watch all the movies. its just that i havent had the right pple to watch it with. you know when sometimes you want to watch the perfect movie with the perfect someone and have that perfect moment in that perfect darkness and cold. i guess i havent had that perfect movie date yet.
i had my own pathetic movie marathon at home with all my favourite movies back to back. and amazingly i watched hindustan too. hahaha! i guess i watched all that shows a million times but i will never get sick of it. just like that show yesterday on channel 5 love actually. i watched it so many times but when i watched it again yesterday it feels like watching it for the first time. with all that emotions coming back to me. oh praise me for being a girl. thats what girls do when watching love flicks. they'll melt and cry. well i didnt cry i just melt. i cant believe i have been blabbering non-stop abut movies. oh gosh. my life is getting so boring. i need a new one. hahaha. well thank god a new year is coming. and maybe i'll change from there. revamp myself! oh yes yes yes!