oh man! why cant pple understand me? seriously.. dont they get what im trying to say. why is pple lying to me. why cant they just tell me the truth. must they seriously get all around me and not go straight to the point. i had it with your lies and deceptions. i was trying to be your fren and this is what you do to me. do you know how hurtful it is. and why must my sister do this to me now? i cant take it no more. i know she wants to get involved with all the masjids stuff and i applaud her for that but i need and want some time being with my frens. and this is a sport which my frens and i can bond in. im sorry if i've hurt you. i didnt mean to. i do love you kakak. but please i beg you. just leave me be this once. i just need you as my sister at home but not when im playing with my frens and having a good time. i wont feel comfortable being around you. and i know that. i swear. i really hope you do something else ot occupy your time. and i will support you in anyway. and yes i know some secrets. heheh. but i wouldnt want to share cause that's the whole point of secrets. i havent been mugging on accounts yet.. too lazy and too tired. its okay 1 more paper left. then im finally done. i really do hope and pray i get to go to sec 5. Please ALLAH help me and guide me through. this is my prayer to you.