well starting work tmr. and im half excited and half scared. its my first time bring in a working area. but thank God i have my bestest fren in the world. my aishah. luckily she's working with me if not i'll just be super miserable and having break alone. hahah miserable me. well enough about work cause it all starts tmr.

im seriously happy for all my frens from the bottom of my heart. cause everyone is happily attached while im the odd one out. well at first i was quite sadden about it but then i look at the brightside that is i can look at hot guys and get frequent eye candies. but i just hope i wont be missing them so much cause i know they will be busy with bfs. i still remember the days i will always sit around and bitch about pple with bfs and gfs. now i have to watch about what i say but well its the fun that counts. hahaha.

pple come and pple go from our lives. everyone says that. but all i hope and wish is that pple stay in my life forever. i am missing all my primary school frens. the last time i met them was on saturday for jalan raye. and that was only a few of us. the period if us meeting each other is just too short. i miss them so much. we will always meet up and gossip and chat about our life and past. and always have frequent midnight calls till like in the morning. but now we are all drifting apart and i hate it. i really do miss them. i just wish we could turn the clock around and start primary school life again. just thinkin gbout this i cant bear living secondary school. i have made great frens here. but well this is life. you just got to move on. thats the sad part of it. but there's always a silver lilning in a black cloud. i think thats how the phrase should go. hhahah.
oh well did i tell you i got a super cute adik now. she's actually from a different school. but we click instantly the first time we met. she's actually a sister of my very very good fren. i didnt know she'll be so cool lah. i love her to bits. she's super cute and we always share our problems together cause she knows she can look up to me and i can look up to her too. through think and thim. hahaha! I love you Iman. <333333333333


oh man! why cant pple understand me? seriously.. dont they get what im trying to say. why is pple lying to me. why cant they just tell me the truth. must they seriously get all around me and not go straight to the point. i had it with your lies and deceptions. i was trying to be your fren and this is what you do to me. do you know how hurtful it is. and why must my sister do this to me now? i cant take it no more. i know she wants to get involved with all the masjids stuff and i applaud her for that but i need and want some time being with my frens. and this is a sport which my frens and i can bond in. im sorry if i've hurt you. i didnt mean to. i do love you kakak. but please i beg you. just leave me be this once. i just need you as my sister at home but not when im playing with my frens and having a good time. i wont feel comfortable being around you. and i know that. i swear. i really hope you do something else ot occupy your time. and i will support you in anyway. and yes i know some secrets. heheh. but i wouldnt want to share cause that's the whole point of secrets. i havent been mugging on accounts yet.. too lazy and too tired. its okay 1 more paper left. then im finally done. i really do hope and pray i get to go to sec 5. Please ALLAH help me and guide me through. this is my prayer to you.


gosh.Ns is here. i just finish four papers. geog, maths paper 1, physics and biology, i swear i feel like i screw up my maths and bio. i hate it. i was cracking my brains while doing it. i felt so horrible. suddenly my mind went blank. oh my!! i am horrible! oh yay!! 5 MORE DAYS TO MY BIRTHDAY! and i will finally be 16!!!! yes yes yes! i still remember the beginning of the year my resolutions before my birthday but i guess only a few was achieved.

1. lose lots and lots of weight.
2. get more new stuff!
3. make more friends than enemies.
4. get a BF soon. (not possible)
5. be a good daughter to my dad and mom.
6. try and maintain my handphone bill(which can never happen)
7. stop criticising and gossiping behind pple's backs.

hahah.. as i said only a few of my resolutions i can achieve.i swear i can never change no. 6 and 7. i am horrible.. but i am cutting down. no.4 is impossible to get for me as i am a very picky person when choosing guys and i get this very horrible thing going on with me. i get jelak with guys easy. hahha. i told you im horrible.i just cant find a decent guy with beautiful eyes. cause to me eyes are important cause whenever you want to talk to pple you are looking at the eyes. so if the eyes are UGLY! than you're just not for me. im sorry. hehehehe :) ok lah i got to cath up on more studying. three more papers to go!! yes yes i can do it! sabar pple!!
GOOD LUCK TO EVERYONE TAKING N OR O!