why now am i feeling all the pressure?
pressure of acceptance in the teenage golongan.
pressuer of studies
pressure of just being a teenager.
why now am i handling all this alone?
what wrong did i do in life?
why is it whenever i do feel down and lonely i am always alone to be sharing this heartbreak.
i couldnt feel any love even from my family.
im glad and will always be thankful for my closest friends. but still there will never be happiness for me
im sick and tired of this shit.
im sick and tired of being left out alone in this world.
i just want to end all this shit.
i have been crying for the umpteenth time for the past few days.
whenever i think about it. tears will just start rolling down my eyes and to my cheeks.
i tried covering it with a dap of blusher and foundation and pretend that it will all be okay.
but i guess i was wrong
people seem to be liking you but then when you turn your back towards them. bithcyness comes out. the most biggest gossip about you can just happen in a minute.
it sucks the way it already is. why must the hurt be even deeper than before?
is this a test from GOD. to see how i am able to cope woth life. well finally i have given all of it up. i just wouldnt care less about everything. i will just go through my days with the most fake smile i could ever show. and pretending.
im just fed up. fed up with everything.
shut up and just go!