Listen
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried to say what's on my mind
You should have know

Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own
You should have listened

hahah. this is my motivation song to move on. i can do it. yes i can! im no pushover. and its not going to be because of him i have to stay how i am. his not the only guy in this world who can make me happy or whatever. i'll be hopeful. hehehe. it hurts but i cant hang on to a memory which only last temporary. its not worth it. heheh. oh yes! i am now having an a affair with AYUTHEPU! heheh.. been going on for so long now. she's going to help me through it. my afternoons are filled with her laughter and smiles. I love her! psst. have i told you that i am in love with bald guys. they are just so hot.
ohh.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JUSTINA! hehe. she's finally sixteen! and i have to wait like another 6 more months for it.
yes yes yes! 3 more freaking papers to go. oh man. i swear i seriously do not want to go for art exam. i havent done a freaking thing yet! not even a research and a theme yet! im so screwed. i think the night before im going to burn midnight oil and finish everything. hahah. i wish?!?! or i just wont come for it. hehehe. stupid art exam. darn freaking 3 hours sit in the hall and draw. i'll just sleep halfway through. super screwed! good luck to me!