back from camp! i think it was so inspirational. i couldnt believe myself that i shared so much to my class. doubted them so much from the beginning. they are all actually nice people. we all cried and laughed all the way. secrets untold. after some candle light thingy during camp. it opened me to a whole new chapter of my teenage life. i want to start anew by asking forgiveness from people i have hurt and adored the most. and also i've been thinking about my future.
i know its cliche and random. but whatever. i think now being in sec 4 you should be thinking your path towards your future. and i do really want to be a journalist and write stories and articles about ex-convicts and ex-drug addicts and helping them getting a second chance in life rather than letting people looking down on them. i hope i can do it! and also i've been thinking of future baby names for my children. i know its more random than ever but i like! i was just thinking that maybe if i could i want twins a boy and girl! wouldn't that be cool. haha!
i learnt so much from a small group of people and a short period of time. but it really open me up! and i really wish to say Thank You!


Can You hear me?
Does anyone around me
Feel the way that I feel now?
Cause from the window where I sometimes cry
I just want to see Your face tonight
And I’m willing to lose everything I am

Cause I need You more than ever
I need Your help to find where I’ve been going wrong so far

Take me under Your wing tonight
Make me so perfect in Your eyes
Hold on cause it will be alright
You’re not alone

When You’re near me, I feel like I just found me
In the traces of the boy from yesterday
But in a world that is so black and white
I will take the steps to change my life
And I won’t be coming back to here again

I need Your loving hand to guide me
Through the maze of all the things inside me
Then I’ll know that I’m alright

Cause I need You more than ever
I need Your help to find where I’ll be going wrong so far

Take me under Your wing tonight
Make me so perfect in Your eyes
Hold on cause it will be alright
You’re not alone

Please help me get from worse to better
Before these tears soak through this lonely sweater
And let me know that I’m alrightI still have one strike of this match left
And I’m holding on to my last breath
And it’s getting a little dark around to see here

Take me under Your wing tonight
Make me so perfect in Your eyes
Hold on cause it will be alright
You’re not alone

Take me under Your wing tonight
Make me so perfect in Your eyes
Hold on it will be alright
You’re not alone

And You’ll be here forever, forever You’ll stay
And You promised to love me, You’ll love me always
You’ll love me for always, You’ll love me for always
Always


"You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true."

i wish my fairy tale will come! Lets all pray! i want my fairytale to become just like cinderella. its such a lovely princess story.


hehe. i think its been super long since i've posted. i know this is kind of long but i just want say Happy New Year to 2007. i think its been very fast and i still cant believe that im in sec 4. and everything seems very stressful nowadays as my major exmas are coming. every single day teachers and parents will have to wake me up from this dream and tell me that i am sec 4 and i have a major paper to do. and every single day i have to remind myself not to slcak in class because every minute or even second counts. and alot has been happening to me too. i didnt think this would come back. but after a few talks with dee she got me thinking. and i mean thinking really hard. but i dont all this confusion to take me over. i dont think people knows that i am suffering deep down too. but i dont want to be a burden to my friends and making it all known. i know thats what friends do. and i do love them alot! without them i dont know what i would do! Now people sometimes have been talking about bgr and wondering how it is and how it feels. but sometimes i think its plain dumb. just be happy! i know i am posting too many topics in this small post. but wth! im feeling emo now. and i think i took alot of emo pictures too. haha i like!