to love is to have someone special one who
you can always depend to be there through
the years sharing laughter and tears as a partner, a lover, a friend.

have i found that? im not sure. i dont know what got into me. i tried to hold on but it turned out worst. i cant seem to think or even make up my mind on what i want to do or even who i wnat to be with. its always changing. right now i think its right for me to be alone. its better. im sick and tired of all this bull shit people give me over and over again. some people don't keep their promises and its very VERY frustrating. i realise that helping people and helping myself is both very different things. and i cant seem to understand why. if i could help them why cant i help myself. Oh God! PLEASE TELL ME WHY? and how long do i have to be like this. but i know God has already plan my life for me and if this is how He wants it to be i will just have to hang on and see how longer it gets.