its been so long since i've blog. alot of stuff had happen this past few days. i dont know what's going on in my life again. it seems like everything was perfect for a while but then it all collapse all over again. and i feel like i have to rebuild it again. watched oprah yesterday and it relaly hit me on how many woman let themselves go because of the wrong men they dated. i'm only 15 but it seems like this is a big issue to women and girls. i dont want to feel like i let myself go not because of guys but because of my life. it's really wasteful. so i've decided on a plan to recover myself from this illusion i call "life". im not going to just brood over the unhappy times i had. but im going to live with the happy moments i had with the people around me. the poeple who make me smile every morning and show me the meaning of love. they are the reason why i wake up every morning with a smile even though my eyes seem droopy or my hair seems tangled. because i know they got my back. i know some people might go through what i had been through. but all i can say is that you need time and moral support from your family and friends. and they need to give you as much love as they possibly can. And that's about it.