ohh.. i had the most fun for a very looooooong time.. went out with my cousins. khairul, kak yani and elina. we went escape and guess the obvious. i was super late. more like an hour late. haha. im sorry! but treat them with my super yummy jellybeans. they are addicted to it. hmmm.. then we went to take the bus and its like just two stops away. while in the bus we took some pictures. camwhoring a bit. it was fun! reached escape and it was super hot. put our stuff in the locker. and headed for all the rides. first it was the rainbow. i was quite scared. then khairul told me to go pee first in case i terpee during the ride. haha! we were laughing and having loads of fun. then headed for more rides. make jokes.. and during the wet & wild ride. i was merely singing away my row row your boat song and burung kakak tua. i look so unglam in that picture when our car was going down. i tried to smiled but then i felt that the water went in my eye. and my contact lens ran a bit. haha. was super wet. luckily i was wearing black so people wont see that i got wet. haha. i told myself that i wont naik any pening rides. but khairul and kak yani paksa me to naik the viking and i told them i got the case of peningkitics. Haha. it's my new disease. but in the end i took it. it felt ok but when at the last part. i could feel my vomit in my throat already. haha. khairul was laughing at me. and i grabbed his thigh like nobody's business. and he said that it was his first time taking a ride with someone who wanted to throw up. Hey! my go-kart sucked! the car was like merely out of gas. and all the hwile i was jsut driving slowly. stupid car! then we took the haunted house and the ghost really scared me. but then it was ok. we were merely laughing rather than getting scared and we were talking to the ghost.. haha. then we took the tiny ferris wheel.. it felt romantic for me and my teddy. oh did i tell you i wont two times in the game of horse racing with my cousins. i won a pony and a purple teddy bear. but then i felt bad for the small little girl losing so i gave her my pony. it felt good. then it was already closing time. we went out from escape at around 8.. and headed to downtown east to eat pizza. but it was expensive.. haha. while walking there we camwhore a bit. took pictures then we decided to just eat new york pizza at white sands mall. while eating we chilled and talked.. more laughs.. haha. it was super fun. we merely express a lot about ourselves. we talked about our childhood lives together and how much fun we had when we were kids. and talked about our embarassing moments during camps, primary schools and secondary schools. and talked about poly life too. then the shops were closing and headed home. took 58 all the way. and reached home around 11 plus. i miss them already! more cousing outings soon yea?!?! cant wait! ((:


Oh my babe
Oh my love
Ooooh
Early was the morn, flowers filled with dew
I became somebody through loving you
Softly as a child, born in natural rain
I predict the seasons to go unchanged

Sometimes in life you run across a love unknown
Without a reason it seems like you belong
Hold on dear life
Don't go off running from what's due
I became somebody through loving you

Warm was the sun
That covered my body so
Reminding me of you as I'd first known
Those were the days
The days that changed my life
The days that made me knew
I became somebody through loving you
Sometimes in life you run across a love unknown
Without a reason it seems like you belong
Hold on dear life
Don't go off running from what's due
I became somebody through loving you

As the sun shines down on me
I know with you in love is where I want to be
Oh sometimes I go on through life thinking
That love is something that's not meant for me
Woah, somebody, somebody

Hold on dear life
Don't go off running from what's due
I became somebody through loving you
I became somebody through loving you
I became somebody through loving you
oooh

when i watched step up yesterday. i heard this beautiful song and i am now in love with it. because of this song. i have woken up from my old self and now awaken with a new self. and im proud of that! the lyrics really brought me to tears. it just so beautiful. when the guy sang the part of ' i became somebody through loving you'.. its really nice. ohhh.. it just melt my heart.



I think this guy is f*ckingly Hot. did you watched him in prison break. with his body ful of tattoos. Argh! that really got me speechless. i love his eyes. haha. i love him! ((:

just going to websites to find the hottest guys in hollywood. and i found him! haha. i am feeling very bimbotic now. but wth! who cares. he's really cute..

hehe.. going for a massage later. cause i've been having this bad neckache for the past few days. is neckache even a word. Hahha! i thought of it. feeling dumb. and then my mom wants to go to mustafa. and i've got no idea why. but i'll just follow cause im bored at home. toodles!


What Our Friendship Meant To Me.

It was like yesterday I remember,
We became good friends.
Taking pictures, hanging out,
Hoping our friendship would never end.
Did it? Did it not?
I'm so confused.
I am sorry for the times we fought.
I wish I could turn back the hands of time.
And make things like they used to be,
If you could only see how it's affecting me.
I will never forget the laughter we shared,
And how we always seemed to be dared
To do wild and wacky things,
To see how much joy and laughter that brings.
You are like a sister to me,
I swear you are my family.
But what you always made me do
Was make me smile,
Which made my day all worthwhile.
But things changed so quickly,
It was like something tremendous hit me.
It felt like a boulder smashing my heart,
breaking it into small little parts.
It can no longer be put back together,
for it has been damaged forever.
Even though things are not like they used to be,
Know for a fact you can count on me.


before i tell you about my story that happen to me today. let me tell you what the word means.
yam: keladi, donkey: keldai
my mom was asking me why i didnt eat her keladi but then i asked her why must i eat her keldai. and she was like because it's nice. and then she remembered that keldai is donkey. and then she started laughing and telling me that why would you want to eat a donkey if you can eat yam. i felt so dumb.. because i mistook keladi for keldai. she started laughing non-stop. Hahah..

talked to my fren which i lsot contact to... months ago. im glad we are still friends. he told me all about his Os and life.. i was like.. wow! nice that we get to catch up. will be going to my mom's fren open house today. then maybe we'll head to vivocity and shop. haha.. i need major shopping. did i tell you that alif is getting cuter every single day. he's learning to talk now! miss my cousin. havent been talking to her this week because of her obs. i bet she's like really dark now. hah... pity her. but we'll go out soon okay!?!?


Artiste: V.E. Ruffedge
Title: Ayu.

Lalulah hari demi hari
Sayunya hatiku ini
Takku sangka kau di sisi
Baju kurung putih berseri...

( korus )
Ayu... (kaulah wanita)
Ayu... (kaulah satu bagi)
Semadikanlah selamanya...
Yang teristimewa
Keayuanmu...

Kaulah mawarku kaulah yang satu...
Memberikanku sebutir harapan keikhlasan
Tanpaku diriku tenggelam
Siang malam ku, hanyut di dalam khayalan
Tak mudah kumelupakanmu...

( korus )
Ayu... (kaulah wanita)
Ayu... (kaulah satu bagi)
Semadikanlah selamanya...
Yang teristimewa
Keayuanmu...

Dalam dirimu penuh kelembutan
Semakin hari makin rinduku padamu
Tanpamu ku sayu
Terkenang kembali sewaktu pertemuan dulu...
Ayunya senyumanmu
Ayunya sentuhanmu
Semadikanlah selamnya...
Yang teristimewa...
Selama-lamanya...
Keayuanmu...
(wajahmu... senyumanmu yang teristimewa)
Keayuanmu...

Past by this song. and i thought it was sweet to have a song written with your name. i wish someone could do that for me. i will just melt instantly. ohh.. that's superly sweet. but this song is a bit slow. its very calming. Hhaha..


its been so long since i've blog. alot of stuff had happen this past few days. i dont know what's going on in my life again. it seems like everything was perfect for a while but then it all collapse all over again. and i feel like i have to rebuild it again. watched oprah yesterday and it relaly hit me on how many woman let themselves go because of the wrong men they dated. i'm only 15 but it seems like this is a big issue to women and girls. i dont want to feel like i let myself go not because of guys but because of my life. it's really wasteful. so i've decided on a plan to recover myself from this illusion i call "life". im not going to just brood over the unhappy times i had. but im going to live with the happy moments i had with the people around me. the poeple who make me smile every morning and show me the meaning of love. they are the reason why i wake up every morning with a smile even though my eyes seem droopy or my hair seems tangled. because i know they got my back. i know some people might go through what i had been through. but all i can say is that you need time and moral support from your family and friends. and they need to give you as much love as they possibly can. And that's about it.


to love is to have someone special one who
you can always depend to be there through
the years sharing laughter and tears as a partner, a lover, a friend.

have i found that? im not sure. i dont know what got into me. i tried to hold on but it turned out worst. i cant seem to think or even make up my mind on what i want to do or even who i wnat to be with. its always changing. right now i think its right for me to be alone. its better. im sick and tired of all this bull shit people give me over and over again. some people don't keep their promises and its very VERY frustrating. i realise that helping people and helping myself is both very different things. and i cant seem to understand why. if i could help them why cant i help myself. Oh God! PLEASE TELL ME WHY? and how long do i have to be like this. but i know God has already plan my life for me and if this is how He wants it to be i will just have to hang on and see how longer it gets.


Its a quiz about my life.

Three physical things you like about yourself
1. My gorgeous eyes
2. My silky burgundy-streaked hair.
3. My back. It might sound weird but I do like. But I wouldn’t want to show it off.

Three physical things you dont like about yourself
1. My fringe
2. Stomach!
3. My nails

Three things that scare you
1. Facing the Creator.
2. The dark. Seriously I still have a night light.
3. Creepy crawlies.

Three things that make you happy
1. Chatting with my lovely friends.
2. Spending time with my family, ALL of them.
3. Running around and making myself sweat.

Three of your everyday essentials
1. My phone. Even though it may seem old. I still love it.
2. Contact Lens. Im addicted to it.
3. Calling Alif and hearing him say AYU!!!

Three things you are wearing right now
1. A billabong shorts
2. Beatty pe shorts. Even though im not in that school. It was my sister’s.
3. Rubberband to tie my layered hair.

Three things you want in a relationship
1. Humour.
2. Physical attraction.
3. Trust/Love/Understanding/Respect
Okay. Maybe I cheated. I do not want just these three things. I want more of it. Heheh.

Three of your favourite bands or artistes
1. My chemical romance
2. Im currently liking Indo songs. Especially Irwansyah and Acha Septriasa.
3. Babyface

Three things you would badly like to do now
1. Get some sleep. Have a very bad headache.
2. Going to school. I miss it though.
3. just sit in front of the tv without any chores to be done.

Three things about the preferred sex that appeals to you
1. His sense of humour.
2. His physique.
3. His charm.

Three ways you are stereotypically a boy
1. My burps.
2. The way I scream at my sister like there's no tomorrow.
3. On how disgusting I can be. You don’t want to know.

Three ways you are stereotypically a girl
1. My room. Which is a nice girl colour. PURPLE!
2. How I go crazy over shoes and bags. I love it!
3. How much shopping I can do with just one day!

Three female celeb crushes
1. Reese Witherspoon
2. Jennifer Aniston
3. Heidi Klum.

Three male celebs that make you go weak
1. Johnny Depp
2. Orlando Bloom
3. Hugh Jackman

Three things you want to do before you die
1. Go to Paris. And observe the Eiffel Tower.
2. Bear 2 children, with the grace of Allah.
3. Finish my Haji!

Three things you would like to change about myself
1. My idealistic expectations.
2. The way I judge people instantly.
3. The way I study.