quoted:
i wish i could have told you
the things i kept inside
but now i guess it's just too late
so many things remind me of you
i hope that you can hear me
i miss you
this is goodbye, one last time.

i find this a nice and sweet but kind of sad. it really means a lot to me.


oh man its like puasa time. im dying here! but i will hold on and continue my puasaing.
im terrified for exams.
1. im not prepared yet.
2. havent finished studying other subjects.
3. im just scared that i screw it up.

today had a discussion with cikgus about the perjumpaan hari raya thing.. haha! it seems freakingly fun. i cant seem to wait. stupid me! think about exams first! i think i can go crazy and mad. and i havent been feeling well this past few days because of that stupid injection! ARGH! i hate needles!! oh guess what! i made a progress. i am trying to make the effort to go terawih everyday if i can. its a nice feeling. its like after terawih i have this nice good feeling in me and that i know ALLAH is watchin over me. and i prayed for everyone and my exams and the well being of me. but while i was praying i was crying at the same time. because i think that i have everything in this world but it is just that i dont appreciate it. and i feel very sad and scared for that and i do not hope to lose everything. well im slacking now. and i think i will mugg later. HAHA! i miss you ((:


1.Single,taken or crushing??
ans: Taken. hehe..
2.Are u happy with ur life now?
ans: YES! i think this is the best time.
3.When you meet the right person,will you fall with him/her fast?:
well. not so. it takes time when sparks fly!
4.Have you had your heart broken?
ans: durh. dont tell me you never had that before.
5.Do you believe there are circumstances where cheating love is acceptable?
ans: what?
Q.6.Would you talk to someone back if he/she cheats on you?
ans: nope. im not so desperate.
7.Have you talk to another person about marriage before?
ans: im only 15. lets take it slow.
8.Do you want children?
ans:YES!
9.How many?
ans: 2 the most!
10.Would you consider adoption?
ans: why not. i dont mind. i will jsut treat it like my own.
11.If someone like you right now,what do you think to let you know his/her feelings?
ans: im not sure.
12.Do you enjoy getting into relationships?
ans: durh. HAHA!
13.Be honest.What did you and your ex did?
ans: its for me to know and for you to find out.
14.Do you believe in love at first sight?
ans: haha. do i?
15.Are you romantic?
ans: im not sure. am i?
16.Do you believe you can change someone?
ans: if i put a big impact on that person then maybe i can change him or her.
17.If you could marry somewhere,where would it be?
ans: im not thinking aboiut marriage now.
18.Do you easily give in when you're fighting?
ans: Nope. but only if i am in the wrong.
19.Do you have feelings for someone right now?
ans: Yes. Heheh..
20.Have you ever wish you could have someone but you messed it up?
ans: who havent?
21.Have you broken a heart?
ans: yeap. and i feel bad after that. Im Sorry.
22.One day if your bestfriend fall in love with he/she that you are deeply in love with.What would you do?
ans: it never occur to me. so im not sure.
23.Are you missing someone right now?
ans: yeap. alot. sigh...
Now you have to ask your 5 friends to do this survey on their blog.Write down their names below.Tag them in their blog to let them know and DON'T stop doing this survey.This survey have been going around.It made people occupied.Get started.And the 5 luckly people are:
.VEGA.
.DAWN.
.FARAH.
.KHAIRUL.
.AYUNNI.


When the broken hearts are mended and the many tears are dried, you learn. When you're over the old boyfriends and girlfriends and you realize you can live without your first love, you learn. You see that the world doesn't end just because you think it will, and that sometimes growing up means letting go. You learn what real love is, and you begin to see that one friend who really cares about you is better than a hundred friends who don't. You learn that you can be strong, take each day step-by-step, and survive every sad moment. So feel the pain and cry the tears, go out and experience life. But when you're at the end of your rope, and you're ready to jump off that ledge, remember that heartache fades, pain subsides, and though life seems at times tpp tough to handle, it's also too precious a gift to waste. Keep on living, never give up, and remember: As you grow, you learn.


Wednesday.
studied with gaga.. haha! and i actually did study. then while studying TWIN called me and ask if i want to go to singpaore idol. and i said yes!! hehe!! so happy. reached home around 3 plus after studying then rest and eat for a while and get ready to go singapore idol. was suppose to meet TWIN at j8 around 5.20. and i thot i was late.. haha! so i got my super power and ran out of the house at 5.15. and i actually reached there earlier than her. so while waiting for her. i met nadia and her family. had a nice short talk with her. miss her so much! then a few minutes later TWIN came and she wanted to eat so i accompanied her to macs and she eate super fast.. Haha! and she told me about him. you dont deserve a guy like him.you deserve a guy better!he doesnt treat you rite. so TWIN! dont worry ok! i am here. then after eating we took 54 all the way straight and took 851. and we thot we will reach there early and wont get lost. but then we miss our stop and we had to walked to the other bus stop which was like so far away. HAHA! was sweating. then when we reached mediacorp.. we had to wlak this long uphill slope. so f*cking long. sorry for the language. but it is long. so when we finally reach mediacorp we saw alot of people. haha! me and twin felt lost. VERY LOST! we were like two newcomers. we had to wait for like a long time just to get in. while waiting called baby for a while. he was at home sleeping and staring at his phone. HAIYO! lazy him. finally we got in. i was like so tired. my legs were aching. Haha! but still excited to see hady! when i saw him. he touched my hand and his hands were like so soft. im jealous! i want that soft hands too.. haha! after the performance headed home with TWIN! we just follow the crowd. haha! we were scared if we get lost.

Yesterday.
stayed at home the whole day and studied my ass off. i really have to work hard and buck up! HEHE! and then when my mom told me that i was getting an injection for the flu vaccine i was freaking out. i could still remember my primary 6 injections. it was so scary. i hate injections and needles! all the way along the journey my hands were feeling cold and i has butterflies in my stomach. so scary! then when we reach the place it was CLOSE! Haha! i was freakingly happy! then we headed to my aunt's place to play with alif! i miss him! so cute! haha! heard the news that Paul was out! so sad. his getting better anyway. all the way paul! i have to study now. till my next post.


this past few days have been amazing to me. well for some you might know why. hehe.. i wont tell more. i have been studying my ass off this past few days. after looking at my results i hated it. i could not stand it no longer.

Vega: without you my life would be so dull. i just love monkeying around with you. and i hope we will stay together forever. and you know whenever you're bored i am here to talk to you.Musettes forever!

Dawn: you know whenever you're lonely or bored or even sad. you know there is always someone smiling and hoping that you are ok. and that is me. just give me a ring anytime and i will make you happy. Musettes forever!

Abby: i know you are still hurting my dear honey. but please i really wish you could still give me a big smile. forget about the past and move on. I love you sweet honey!

Ayunni: please do forget him. there is no point for you to continue it will hurt you even more. so please i beg you do not hurt yourself anymore. you know there are others out there just for you. without him you still have us and you know i will always love you. just do forget him! and i will try my hardest to forget him.

Farah: hey! my sweet datuk. you know i miss you so much. without you ini maths class it is so boring. and how we love to sneak food in and eat it while no one is looking. but we have to buck up ok! i love you DATUK!

Sweet Darling: Without you i am no one. you were the one who took my heart away. and i will always love you. we will pray and pray that we will still grow strong. I love you! :D

Haslina: you are my best friend since primary school until now. we have been through ups and downs for 9 years. you are the one i could talk to other than the rest. and i hope our friendship will last long! i love you my dear friend!

TWIN: i love you so much TWIN. and i hate it when i see you sad. so please try and forget the past. i hope and i pray that he will confront you. one fine day. so please do be patient!

Sweet Brother: To my sweet brother i never had. thanks for helping me with it. without you i will be lost. and i do hope we will still be close when we're old and grey. Your sweet sister loves you dearly. :D

Sweet Sister: To my dearly sister. i know your A-levels are coming and i know you are stressed up. but without you in my life i wouldn't be here. you have guided me through my ups and downs. and you know when i am feeling sad, angry or even happy. and i know i do annoy you sometimes and you annoy me to. but thats what sisters do. and i know sometimes you could be a really big bitch and i will just have to tolerate with it. but no matter what fights, arguements or even quarrels we have you know i still do truely and mostly love you! I love you my sister, Sharini. :D