'i had the worst day again! i cant stand it anymore. why is this going on? you know i hate it! God please help me and get things back on track! this seriously sucks! the day could not get any worst.i got booked by some stupid thing! oh please! and then i got recess detention and mr jiow was like showing us this stupid face! whatever! it is like only 10 mins! then had accounts! mrs chow is gettin really angry at our class. she is pressuring us too much! crying my heart out now. then after school had english oral. miss wong asked me some questions which i seriously do not know how to answer! Haha! then after english oral accompanied abby to novena and we had a nice long talk! i love you abby! my bitcing partner! Haha! should do it more often?!? we were discussing about our lives and relatinships. Argh! how long must i stay like this? what do i not have that other girls have? this seriously sucks! i tried everything! but it just wont work! and today i saw ___ with her boyfriend! me and abby were so jealous. i was definitely jealous! i did not even think she could have. why does she have and i dont! ate ben & jerry's just now to let out my anger! Haha! it did not work. even though i might be smiling and laughing in the outside but i am hurting and killing and crying my heart out inside. i hope someone will just lend me their shoulder to cry on and i hope that i can just stay with that person till the day i die! i waited for years, months, days, hours, mins and secs for the right person to come to me. but all i got are jerks and more jerks! why msut this happen to me now? everyone is happy except for me! i do not want to go on like this anymore. it has been happening for 6 months plus now!

My Prayer: Ya Allah. Please help me through the struggles i face everyday in this life. Help me survive through the day without a tear in my eyes. Help me find the right path and continue to lead me on. Guide me through your open arms and i promise that i will follow it.

To Ayunni: I love you! and no matter what! you still have me and others! i know it is going to be 2 more months. but you should really let go. you are hurting yourself inside and i can feel it. if he really does not care you should just let it go. and bring in other guys in your heart rather than him! Please! I beg of you to let him go.

To Abigail: I love you my bitching partner. without you i can never live. we will have another day out and just cry our hearts out. and we will complain and bitch about our life. and stare at other couples and if we see them we will surely throw our shoes. okay? and i still cant believe it! i will help you move on slowly!

getting cheered up by my dear Haslina! i love her so! you know i do. we must have our date again ok? will tell you more! Haha! i just love being with her. it will always bring a smile to my sad face! i love you no matter what! ((: see i am giving you a smile now.