HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DARLING GAGA!
i am so happy for you! wish you all the best in life! you have been the greatest gift from GOD to me. and without you, dee and bi my life is like hell and shit! you make me feel happy and you and dee and bi are the reason i go to school. I LOVE YOU!
i had a nice time at the party jsut now. reach home at the perfect timing.. Hhaha!! see i am so punctual.oh!! did i tell you guys. i danced with this cute american guy. Hahaha! my whole class was so jealous at me. sorry! i felt lucky.but he is so tall and imagine me with him. hello! i am short lah.. i just slide myself off his feet. HAHA! was fun! and now i have to rush to finish up my ebglish project and we are presenting it on monday. ARGH! pressure now. and i think i am the dumbest person ever. my exams are like in 3 weeks time and i dont even know. wtf rite? i have to start revising soon. i jsut cant afford to fail. i want to go choo train! HELP ME.


this past few days have been fun yet saddening. i just cant seem to understand my family sometimes especially my mom. she knows i am 15 already i can take care of myself. im not 5 anymore. she does not need to worry. i try to understand her but everytim i do that she gets me frustrated and stressed up. i am trying my very best to make her happy but evrytime it makes her sad and it will make her feel like i let her down. why must this happen? and you know i need you here with me now. i think about you everyday and everytime you come to my mind i try to forget it. but it jsut seems to be stuck there. why are you showing signs that you like me and care for me when you havent ask me yet. i am hurting inside because of you. but i will try my best to let you go. i do not want to hurt you or myself even. i know we are not meant to be. i will be happy when you're happy. i have upcoming tests now. and it really gets me stressed up. i cant take it anymore.

i think this song is a nice song to listen if you are feeling this way.
michael buble: Home

Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home

May be surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
Just wanna go home
Oh I miss you, you know

And I've been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
"I'm fine baby, how are you?"
Well, I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aerorplane
Another sunny place
I'm lucky I know
But I wanna go home
I got to go home

Let me go home
I'm just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I'm living someone elses life
It's like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
This was not your dream
But you always believed in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
And even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I'm surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel alone
Let me go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I've had my run
Baby, I'm done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It'll all be alright
I'll be home tonight
I'm coming back home


watched the fireworks for the last two days! was super nice! i love it! Hahah! Was super amazed at it. abby i hope you will be alright? there is no use to hold on to him anymore. just let it go. ogay? i am here! we are a happy family! met syafiq and kay and when out with the blur queens. it was our anniversary! but we are losing someone soon.. i miss her!Hhaha! they were so funny today. i love till my stomach hurts. it was so funny! kay was telling me about his sister. the "dhoby gahut story and toa payoh". his sister is cute. Hhaha! dont cabut again okay? not good. thankfully i have no homework for today only! i love school. oh.. and i got tripped by two monkeys in class. and i grabbed charmaine's ____. haha! this two fools! must do it to them one day. ok will post another time soon. and farah we should have our esplanade dating soon? i miss you!


Haha! HAPPY NATIONAL DAY SINGAPORE!
watched the fireworks with my family today. it was suppose to be colourful and nice and fun. but it turned out to be a disaster. this stupid building was blocking the whole thing. like what a waste. we were sitting there getting ready to watched it as a family and then when it started it was blocked! stupid building! Hahah! everyone looked frustrated. after the " amazing" fireworks. we went to arab street to eat saudi arabian food. Hahaa! the place is so cool. i love it! trhe food is yummy but the service is freaking slow! i cannot stand it. Hahaha. that is one saudi arabia restaurant that has no chairs and we had to seat on cushions. like so cool! i like it! then after the meal headed home. Hhaha! ok i think i am going out to study tmr! cant wait.


A SHOUT OUT TO AYUNNI!
please. stop whatever you're doing. it hurts the people around you and especially yourself. you should not be angry at yourself but be angry at the person. the stuff you're doing now is hurting us. your frens who will always stick by you everyday. you know that we have your back. and no matter what we will still love you. it is his lost not yours. you can always find someone better for you. i know somewhere out there, there is a person for you and for everyone. me and abby are helping you find the perfect one! please! from the bottom of my heart do not do it anymore! I love you my baby! without you my life id dull. and it will be duller if you continue doing it.

today had national day celebrations. i wanted to wear red shirt. but i felt so uneasy in the morning. so i decided to change to my uniform. when i reached school i thought no one would be wearing school uniform but it turn out it was actually equal. Hhaha! the girls look lovely and nice in the red or white shirts that they were wearing. had national day mass but the malay girls can choose to go canteen to seat down and skip mass. and we sat at one long table and talked and sang the national day songs. we were all feeling the mood of it! Hahaha! me and zulaikha talked a lot. i guess she is changing. nazreah is so funny! after mass we had the concert thing and we had to sing national day songs. she was so into it and she sang her heart out.it was hilarious! i love you my honey! no matter what. Hhaha! after school when to my aunt's house cause i have to send linda to her swimming class. haiyo. had to cancel all my plans for her. but no worries. at least my frens understand! i love them! Hohoho!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!
HAPPY 41ST BIRTHDAY! ((:


Yay! my parents are back! Haha.. so Happy. miss them! and they bought so many nice stuff. i like!i love them! Haha! ok now i am fuckingly stress over school now! ARGH! ok i dont feel like posting anymore.







linda's birthday party was like a week ago. but i decided to post some pictures.. Hahah! ... isn't it nice. Haha! i love my family! ((: .. will post another day. now have to help my cousin with her blog.


feeling sick now. my parents are gone for the weekend to Thailand, Bangkok. Hhaha.. i guess i am missing their presence. called them jsut now and asked them to buy stuff for me! and they did! YAY!
i am really disappointed and sad for her. why is she doing this to herself? it is not funny. you are hurting yourself and hurting the people around you. PLEASE! STOP IT NOW!


'i had the worst day again! i cant stand it anymore. why is this going on? you know i hate it! God please help me and get things back on track! this seriously sucks! the day could not get any worst.i got booked by some stupid thing! oh please! and then i got recess detention and mr jiow was like showing us this stupid face! whatever! it is like only 10 mins! then had accounts! mrs chow is gettin really angry at our class. she is pressuring us too much! crying my heart out now. then after school had english oral. miss wong asked me some questions which i seriously do not know how to answer! Haha! then after english oral accompanied abby to novena and we had a nice long talk! i love you abby! my bitcing partner! Haha! should do it more often?!? we were discussing about our lives and relatinships. Argh! how long must i stay like this? what do i not have that other girls have? this seriously sucks! i tried everything! but it just wont work! and today i saw ___ with her boyfriend! me and abby were so jealous. i was definitely jealous! i did not even think she could have. why does she have and i dont! ate ben & jerry's just now to let out my anger! Haha! it did not work. even though i might be smiling and laughing in the outside but i am hurting and killing and crying my heart out inside. i hope someone will just lend me their shoulder to cry on and i hope that i can just stay with that person till the day i die! i waited for years, months, days, hours, mins and secs for the right person to come to me. but all i got are jerks and more jerks! why msut this happen to me now? everyone is happy except for me! i do not want to go on like this anymore. it has been happening for 6 months plus now!

My Prayer: Ya Allah. Please help me through the struggles i face everyday in this life. Help me survive through the day without a tear in my eyes. Help me find the right path and continue to lead me on. Guide me through your open arms and i promise that i will follow it.

To Ayunni: I love you! and no matter what! you still have me and others! i know it is going to be 2 more months. but you should really let go. you are hurting yourself inside and i can feel it. if he really does not care you should just let it go. and bring in other guys in your heart rather than him! Please! I beg of you to let him go.

To Abigail: I love you my bitching partner. without you i can never live. we will have another day out and just cry our hearts out. and we will complain and bitch about our life. and stare at other couples and if we see them we will surely throw our shoes. okay? and i still cant believe it! i will help you move on slowly!

getting cheered up by my dear Haslina! i love her so! you know i do. we must have our date again ok? will tell you more! Haha! i just love being with her. it will always bring a smile to my sad face! i love you no matter what! ((: see i am giving you a smile now.