sometimes i do wonder.... why my life is not perfect like some people i know. why must i live this way. then i realise that GOD had made us on how he want us to be and i appreciate that. i really do.
i do envy people who have like everything. real good friends, money,smart,beautiful,talented,boy-girl relationship. i wonder when i would have those aspects. hmmm.. but i am still happy with the way i am with what i have and not to be greedy. i wonder when i would get to share my happiness and love to someone. i wonder when i would get to have the feeling that everyone who is in love does. i also wonder when i would even have this kind of feelings. but somtimes patient does pay. and i would just wait and keep on prayin till the day comes. i would pray my heart out until GOD answers all my prayers.
i really think that there is hope out there for people who think that they have lost everything from the tsunami, hurricane, landslide and earthquake. even though they had lost someone but the have to look at the bright side that theri love ones are looking at them with a big smile on their face.
i think you guys are wondering why i am saying this. it is because when i walked home today i saw a group of kids who were trying to find hope around but people just ignored. just because they are kids but that does not mean that they cant make a difference to the world. it is so sad and heartless for some people who ignored kids like them. i believed in them and i know they can do it.


i had the worst and fun day ever. let me tell you about it.
the other day i went out with my clique. nadia, haslina, su, hasif, hazwan and izuan. but there were two new guys. subree and farouk. met at dhoby ghaut mrt station and they were there already. fast! then there was this magic show. well i thought it was kind of lame but for the kids it was funny. me, haslina and nadia were our usual selves making stupid dance moves when the song was played and laughing. then headed to far east. walked all the way there from plaza singapura to far east just to eat ljs. aiyoh! then when we went in, there was this guy with piercings all over his face. my first reaction was "OUCH!". then he was satring at us and we fle uncomfortable. and then he went out and he showed us this f*cked up face and this come-outside-and-settle-this sign. and they all went. the girls was like scared and hope nothing happen. ut then the piercing guy forgave us. HAHA! how funny.
headed to esplanade.and it was fun at first with all the funny lame jokes they had in mind. but then the worst thing that happen to my life came. it started out to be a friendly and inncent day, taking pictures and stuff. then some tangan gatal go and start throwing stones. but it was jsut one stone. and then some idiot cisco guy came out and started scolding us and shouting to us with some foul language. i was like WTF! then after some scolding we leave. headed back to town. more jokes. then went home with haslina and nadia. went to j8 first to buy some stuff. then they were so kind to walk me home. reach home around 9 plus. kind of early. HAHA! did not get any scolding from my parents but instead got it from that idiot cisco guy!


kind of funny yet cool. HAHA!

Name 20 ppl u can think off on top of your head. Dont read the below questions before u write and tag 5 ppl to do this survey.

1. My sister
2. elina
3. vega
4. aishah
5. dawn
6. khairul
7. danial
8. shah
9. sulaztry
10. haslina
11. nadia
12. nurul
13. linda
14. alif
15. abby
16. farah
17. ayunni
18. mama
19. abah
20. mr jiow

THE QUESTIONS
Q1. How did you meet 14?
well his my cousin. The cutest!
Q2. What would you do if you never met 1?
I wouldn’t know who I am right now.
Q4. Did you ever like 19?
DURH! His my dad. Of course
Q5. Would 6 and 17 make a good couple?
nope. They don’t even know each other
Q6. Describe 3.
sexy, lovable, amazing and pretty. I just love her!
Q7. Do you think 8 is attractive?
HAHA! Yes!
Q8. Tell me something about 7.
His HOT! His my cousin!
Q9. Do you know any of the 12's family?
DURH! Shes my cousin.
Q10. What's 8's favourite?
Acting.
Q11. What would you do if 11 confesses that he/she likes you?
I would be touched. But im not a lesbian.
Q12. What language does 15 speak?
English and Chinese. But mostly English.
Q13. Who is 9 going out with?
Not anyone right now.
Q14. How old is 16 now?
same age as me. 15!
Q15. When was the last time you talked to 13?
a few days ago. Before she left for holiday. Miss her soo..
Q16. Who's 2 favourite band/singer?
hmm.. anything?
Q17. Would you date 4?
of course. I love her!
Q18. Would you date 7?
I want to.
Q19. Is 15 single?
Nope.!
Q20. What's 10's last name?
hmm.. hussin! Is it one s or two?
Q21. Would you ever been in a serious relationship with 11?
NEVER!
Q22. What school does 3 goes to?
same school as me. CHIJ Toa Payoh!
Q23. Where does 6 lives?
marine parade.
Q24. Whats your favourite thing about 5?
EVERYTHING!
Q25. Have you seen 1 naked?
yup. She even saw me naked.


woke up as usual. and realised that today is father's day! did the card till late last night. haha! it looked pretty nice. i like!
well i just want to wish all fathers out there especially my dad
HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!
i love you no matter what! you are the best!

i miss alif. yay! his coming back today. i jsut cant wait! and tmr is chalet!


i think i am a hindustan freak. HAHA!
this might sound crazy but i watched salaam namaste more than 10 times i think in a period of 1 week and 3 days.
and i actually downloaded the song to my mp3. i feel so bloody freako!
but salaam namaste is a nice show to watch if you want to kill you boredom during the holidays.
since i got no money to watch movies i just watch whatever dvds i have. movie-hopping.
YES! i like!
theres a chalet tmr! WHEE! chalet agains. meeting TWIN in the morning first then hang around, catch up on all the gossiping and then headed for the chalet at pasir ris again! HAHA! yes. its going to be 11 now and i dont feel sleepy. AMAZING! while my mom is sleeping soundly. and the breeze of the air-con is getting me tired. HAHA! i am talking to my gay cousin again! i told you he is getting gayer everyday. i meant it in a happy way. he has so many ways to amuse me.
now he describes himself as a hornny perv and i am a camera slut!

ok getting really tired. will update more soon.
you guys are being love by idayu! :))


When I fall in love it will be forever
Or I'll never fall in love
In a restless world like this is
Love is ended before it's begun
And too many moonlight kisses
Seem to cool in the warmth of the sun

When I give my heart it will be completely
Or I'll never give my heart
And the moment I can feel that you feel that way too
Is when I fall in love with you.

(Instrumental)

And the moment I can feel that you feel that way too
Is when I'll fall in love with you

i can seriously relate to this song. i find it so beautiful


SUNDAY
had family chalet at pasir ris. was so much fun! my cousins are getting more gay as usual. ate loads of food. then walk around. wanted to play pool but it was close. but my cousin taught me some tricks! HAHA! so cool. i like! i like! so they wanted to play soccer but with a beach ball. from a friendly match it became a shirt-taking-out kind of match. and me and my twin discovered that we are camerawhores. anywhere and anytime we can jsut take pictures.! after playing soccer for about half and hour they when to take pictures with us and it felt so disgusting! cause they were all sweating and they were hugging and giving us their sweat! ARGH! EWWW! sounds bimbotic! HAHA! then me and ashriq had a moment to talk about stuff. it was nice! and i love my genuinely gay cousin! he is getting gayer everyday! HAHA! i do not know how to spell.

MONDAY
went back to the chalet again reached there like around 11 plus cause my twin got free complimentary tickets to escape and wild wild wet. but i could not go to wild wild wet due to girls stuff! HAHA! so headed to escape around 12 plus. took all the rides till i vomitted! AND YES I DO ADMIT THAT I CANT TAKE ANY SPINNY RIDES! took go-kart 3 times. was so fun. got to overtake people. i can drive! i cant wait to get my licence. and took the wet and wil 2 times. and the rest were jsut plain fun! i bet the escape people are jelak of our faces. HAHA! then headed to downtown macs and bought food! was so hungry! did not eat breakfast. HAHA! only ate koko krunch! i like! then father fetch us and brought food at adam road. YUM! and got to meet alif! i love him! going to miss him when his gone for three days. will only be back on friday! ARGH! i want to kiss him again! SO CUTE! now have to start doing my homework. and i have to go school tmr for art! DARN IT! GOOD NIGHT.


had this kenduri at my house. was kind of cool. but i was still sick and been going to the toilet for like 5 times. HAHA! oh guess what i watched salam namaste again. i think it is like the 5th time i watch it. i am so lame! then after the kenduri had to clean the whole house and i helped. then my sister was like looking at our old albums and some of our umrah pictures. and looking at it i remembered about the good times i had. this might sound funny but i remembered about my umrah fling. the malay people should know what umrah is. well anyway i remembered about that. some fights and some funny times. and i was only primary 4 then! like hello i was so young. didn't even know that would actually happen

i kind of pity my sister. i feel that i have not been a real young sister to her. i treadted unfairly! well I'M SORRY! i know that she is going through stress now. because of her A-levels coming. i will always be there to support you 100%. and i am really sorry! I LOVE YOU!