OH GOD! i seriously feel like i am trapped in this world now and could not get out till i reach the age of 40! FUCK! i feel damn stress when i am at home and in school. and i know my mid terms are coming but that does not mean anything.. it is just that i cant stand this tension anymore.! and i feel that i may burst anytime soon! I FEEL LIKE CRYING BUT NO TEARS COULD COME OUT! damn it! why do they have to be like this to me? i feel the need to have someone right now but i could only depend on myself!
I HATE MY LIFE!
ESPECIALLY THE PEOPLE LIVING WITH ME!
they always take each others side but not me.. and i will always be alone. i cry everynight but they do not know that! i shed a tear and always think of killing myself but they still do not know. i draw or even wirte songs to vent my anger. i hope they understand but they will only understand when they really know how i feel! WHY! GOD PLS DO HELP ME RIGHT NOW!
feeling this pressure alone is seriously killing me! i cant take it anymore.

stuff i want to overcome
1. the MID-TERMS
2. HEIGHTS!
3. my FAMILY
4. the pressure
5. and the thought of me being alone!

fucking hate it!
just drop dead and die!