had the worst day today!
got my results and it was badly done! i feel so freakingly low now..i feel like having a cookie! i feel that i let my parents and my sister down. well i am sorry but you guys should understand my plight and my situation now. i am under alot of pressure and you can still blame me for everything. what am i to you? i feel so bloody tired now!i really have to buck up during the june hols. no more going out and slacking around. have to start cracking the books. and memorise all the formulas from sec 1 till now! oh gosh! if this is my results for Os i am so dead lah! i cant even do a bloody mid-year paper. and what am i going to do to my life then? i feel everything crashing down now!
had practice today.. and i hurt my neck and shoulder. bruised all over. feel so painful but they jsut would not care. so dont even bother to talk to them now. why must i live in this misery without no one to turn to.
Ever had that feeling when you know you're missing someone really badly but you're just too selfish to set aside time for that someone cos you're worried that he/she wouldn't appreciate it at all and you wonder if the person misses you too?
i think that i miss alot of chances in life. i gave him up and now im alone. why msut this happen to me? i am really sorry if i hurt you so badly. i know you were hurting inside but i just ignored it. i wish we could be friends again like last time and wished that we could start everything again. please do not ignore me anymore. everytime i feel lonely i think of you when you will always call me and ask me how i am and how i was feeling. i feel so happy when you called me and even msg me everyday without fail. but why did i do that to you? why? i know it wasnt you but me. i was really dumb and stupid! please forgive me! what was i suppose to do. i didnt have time.
i feel so unfaithful to the one.