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sometimes true friends are like strangers to you

i feel so empty inside
i feel like a hole in my heart
i feel so lonely
why? why? why?
this word keep appearing in my head
i feel so stressed up
is it because of exams?
is it because of myself?
is it because of my life?
what?
i want and need the answer!
oh GOD! please do help me
i need the help now!
please shine a light from above to guide me through it all
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the last few days was ok i guess.. had to attend my mom's cousin's wedding at orchid country club! like so mahal rite?.. darn rich lah!! so jealous..the guy married an australian.. thats why! so cool!! and it was the day of the hollaback crew!! wanted to go but couldn't because of the wedding! darn it!! then two more weeks there is going to be another wedding.. but this time it is my father's side! oh god!! three weddings in like a month! stupid! ok.. today had cme.. miss shanthi didnt come then had art.. have not handed in my prepwork yet.. hehe!! then had recess.. i am starting to hate that malay stall aunty!! so hypocrite!! horrible! then had geog, maths and ss.. starting to understand maths now cause i am sitting in fornt.. took the initiative to move myself forward!! ahaha!! such a good girl! then after school went to the library to read some books then played computer.. heheh.. then had malay oral.. some topic about does family play an important role in a teenagers life? and does teenagers nowadays choose their family or friends?.. i was merely choking.. saying a lot of english words.. and cikgu was like "idayu boleh kamu bercakap dalam bahasa melayu?" i was like wtf! then it started raining.. and had to move the chairs and table during my oral!! stupid! and i was already like so scared of the thunder! and my cikgu was like"jangan takut.. sambung".. my hands was shivering.. could not see my blood flowing.. so white!! and it is only oral!! not mid-year yet! OH GOD!! then it was raining when we went home.. was drenched.. felt cold all the way home.. vega and me was like holding hands and screaming at the same time!! and when we saw a lightning we will hug each other automatically.. and we see dawn running behind us!! ahah!! she got left behind..sad!! i still love you guys! <333
ok have to do my art now!! so tired now! ok got to go.. till my next post!


had a fun today actually..well i am so lazy to blog but looking at my friend's blogs i decided to be a good girl and blog!! havent been payin attention in school for so long.. oh darn!! i am so tired everyday!! why?.. everytime i feel like one big load of school on my shoulders!! darn it!!
i just hope that mid-yrs will be over soon.. i dont think i am blogging that much now..just pray hard that i will be in the study mood!!